#anarexx

getting everything physical except weight loss

squatting while trying to force myself to poo is not where I saw myself at 24 tbh

my friends at work are now no longer speaking to me over my notice but like they’re short staffed so like I ain’t really sure how cutting me out is going to make me want to stay when they know the reason why is my ED especially

feel like food is the only thing I’ve got control over rn and I can’t even starve myself correctly lmao

anyone else just like take mega long baths to avoid eating?? my housemate must think I’m a fucking fish

my work are so supportive in getting me help and then I’m just like lol no x

I’ve got work in 43 minutes and I’m in a vegan low calorie wormhole lol

ngl not eating after 7pm is working wonders for me atm x

moved in with my friend and there’s something rlly satisfying about declining food when they offer it

POV: u get invited to something but it will mess with your set eating times/ fast/ weekly binge and purge x

gonna treat myself to so many clothes when I go down a size - don’t think my bank account is ready

I started at 215 and now I’m down to 188 it’s feels amazing but I have so much longer to go

Lost 21 pounds this month ☺️

Hoping for more next month

I went to the doctor last week and was prescribed ✨anti anxiety meds✨

BITCH

I started them on Tuesday and I’ve lost 7 pounds bc I feel so violently ill after taking them ☺️

Had no clue but apparently fasting/ restricting is causing my acid reflux to act up,, my throat is in so much pain I wanna die but I can’t eat more or stop fasting

So, I’m almost 48 hours into a fast and I’ve literally lost a pound in a day!!!! I haven’t felt this euphoric in forever!!! Manifesting this feeling for all of you, I know you deserve it

You know you have an ed when you literally dream of eating unsafe foods and wake up almost crying

a-bug-with-an-ed-deactivated202:

peachjambobatea:

poison-flower:

peachjambobatea:

poison-flower:

a-bug-with-an-ed-deactivated202:

poison-flower:

a-bug-with-an-ed-deactivated202:

poison-flower:

a-bug-with-an-ed-deactivated202:

purpleskiesandcryingovercals:

a-bug-with-an-ed-deactivated202:

purpleskiesandcryingovercals:

nutella on green bell pepper>>>>

that’s me shite right there

@a-bug-with-an-ed@peachjambobatea

IM SORRY BUT I HAVE TO RESPECTFULLY DECLINE I WOULD RATHER DIE THAN TRY THAT

YOU CAN’T KNOW IT’S BAD IF YOU HAVEN’T TRIED IT, BUG!!

I KNOW WHAT NUTELLA TASTES LIKE AND I KNOW WHAT GREEN BELL PEPPERS TASTE LIKE AND MY TONGUE SAYS N O

I’m going to block all of you and move to a cave

its been two weeks since you moved into your cave. you’re now running low on the bag of safe foods you brought with you because you didn’t think this through very well. “at least i’m finally safe now…” you say to yourself as you arrange your comfy rock bed.

you hear breathing behind you and turn around to see@purpleskiesandcryingovercals holding a jar of nutella and a green bell pepper. “you can’t know it’s bad if you’ve never tried it :)” she says as she tries to feed you a bite

you realize you could never escape - no matter how far you ran.

I love you and will kill you for this

DO IT, I DESERVE IT

As Purpleskies draws closer, preparing to strangle me with the poison she calls ‘Nutella on bell peppers’, time slows to a halt. It is as though my life is flashing before my eyes, my doom unavoidable.

I realise then, that the cave I have been inhabiting alone for all this time, was not empty at all. Behind the rocks, the far end of the cave, another dwells. He tries to run, to escape the fate that I have been condemned to, but it is too late.

“I see you, @a-bug-with-an-ed won’t you have some too?” They say, smiling sweetly as though it can conceal the villainy that radiates from their very bones.

“No,”@a-bug-with-an-ed gasps, horrified, “Never, not over my dead body.”

But alas, nobody can escape the fate of nutella on bell pepper. Not even @a-bug-with-an-ed

What if someone made a wattpad fanfic for edblr

…

Someone restrain me

Sorry you were saying? https://www.wattpad.com/story/288322615-edblr

ASAAKSJSKSKKSKSKSKSKS

I AM ACTUALLY SHAKING AND CRYING CAN WE PLEASE GET MORE UPDATES ON THE FANFIC I LOVE THIS ENTIRE FUCKING POST

Edblr expectations: “skip dinner, wake up thinner”,“ a second on the lips is forever on the hips”

Edblr reality: this^^

Well back at school and already relapsing, maybe if this school wasn’t filled with the skinniest boys I’ve seen, but oh well zero is already back on my phone

The world must be telling me to starve myself, my school was selling these really good sandwiches and literally as I got to the front of the line they run out. All they had was low cal fruit water and mini rice cakes