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Well golly-gee, this post sure is late. I’ve been swamped as of late so I finally found 5 minutes to post my Lammas/Lugnasadh picnic I had with a friend. (Her bowl didn’t match though ) I’ll share the recipes for anyone who wants to make them but for the soup, personally, I’d cut back on the onions and garlic. I’d also double the bread recipe since it doesn’t make much dough, but only if you intend to make it for others as well. If reblogging feel free to delete my paragraph.

Recipes for: Triquetra Bread,Honey CakesandPotato Soup

Aug. 6, 2019

I pulled a treat-yo-self and bought honey sticks. Also, my plant babies.

one-time-i-dreamt:

I ran away with a redheaded lady and we lived in pure lesbian bliss in a cabin in the woods.

I submitted this so which lady wants to run away with me to a cabin in the woods and make my dreams come true

We’ve all dreamed about what our “perfect future” would look like, but did you realize just how much that actually tells you about yourself?

Each and every dream or goal you have for yourself can teach you a lot about your own personal values and desires. As such, it can also tell you what you truly need to focus on to get where you want to be!

Start by answering the following question: How do I want to live?

There’s no deadline of “…in five years” or anything like that. It’s just- what does your ideal life look like? In the form of bullet points, jot down any and everything you think of that you think is important to the ideal.

Then go back and answer a different question: What does my dream lifestyle say about me?

There are typically two categories of information you can glean from this exercise. The first is what you value.

At the very core, the center, of who you are, what is the absolute most important to you? For example, I noticed that a lot of my “ideals” that came to mind involved having the discipline to eat well or having more time and funds to throw into self-care and beauty routines. This tells me that  I value my own health and physical appearance and it is important to me that I view myself in a positive light, even if no one else does.

For me, that is something I have struggled with for a long time, feeling confident in my own body. At some point, it became one of my fears and a weakness to me. However, what we fear about ourselves or the world around us can often tell us exactly what we value so deeply. The reason we fear certain things is because we have something to protect there, something we love and cherish, and we desperately want to prevent it from being taken from us. By focusing on those areas in our self-reflection, we can help strengthen those values and desires that are hidden there so that we can wear them more confidently.

The second category of information you can learn about from this exercise is what you desire.

While your values are your needs, your desires are your wants. Could you survive without them? Probably, but that doesn’t make them any less important to you. Your values are things that have always been a part of you, but have weakened over time and need to be given strength. A desire, on the other hand, are things that haven’t come to pass yet but are essential to your continued growth as a person. They can show you what pieces of yourself you have outgrown or the best building blocks to help you strengthen, or develop new, core values.

For example, when looking at my “ideals”, I can see that the words “confidence” and “discipline” and “self-control” pop up a lot, always in the context that they are something I lack. That’s not a negative way to write about myself, it’s simply that at my current stage in life, I have noticed this and now I am expressing the desire to change that. Due to my personal context, this tells me that  I desire the confidence to speak when needed, to stay silent when it isn’t, and say precisely what needs to be said, instead of rambling anxiously and feeling uncomfortable in my own silence. If there is something about yourself that really bothers you, it’s your brain telling you that whatever is on your nerves is no longer necessary to you, that you’ve outgrown it and need something else now. In my case, I feel out-of-control in social situations and after looking at what my “ideals” actually are, can safely say that the issue is rooted in low, or a lack of, self-confidence.

Have a positive self-reflection day everyone!

First full outfit/look I’ve worn in months

Currently look like this and I’ve been very very ashamed to go outside, Everyone is telling me I have a small bump but compared to how I was before (basically concave) I can’t find the confidence to get dressed most days

It’s mid-summer. It just rained, and the days have been long and about 90 degrees.

But it just started raining down golden leaves for a solid fifteen seconds out of nowhere.

I- did my current embroidery project accidentally summon the autumn??

Oh-

oh no-

Today is one of those days where I just can’t seem to get moving. I’m just…tired.

Tired of being so stressed out. Tired because I get so anxious every year leading up to my birthday. Tired of not being able to sleep, or sleeping way to much. Tired of binging followed by days of not eating anything. Tired of feeling so inexplicably irritated by every inconvenience because of how many have stacked up over the course of years. Tired of the nightmares and the negative thoughts and the endless struggle to find the energy to do what needs done.

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On days like this, it’s important for me to step back from my own life. Sometimes I stop being able to see everything while standing in the middle of the storm. When I move away from it— maybe I take some time to listen to lofi and chill out, or do some journaling or house chores while mom isn’t home and I can think, or go take a long walk by myself— I have a chance to look at the world for what it is.

Yes, things are tough right now. Yeah, I wasn’t dealt the best hand in life leading up to this point. I’m covered in scars both inside and out and don’t get how to act or respond to most situations.

But I’m still so young!I’ve got so much more living to do. Things to see. Stuff to experience! I’m nowhere near the end of my journey. Hell, I’ve barely just begun.

I am insignificant in the grand scheme of things. A tiny bolt holding other gears in place. Sometimes that frustrates me and makes me flustered, thinking I can’t ever reach my goals due to my setbacks. And yet, if I, that little bolt holding things together were to disappear, so many other things far beyond me would fall apart.

Yeah, I’m humble in my existence because I am not a driving force of this world. But I am still a part of everything here. Connected to it, moving with its time, and woven into so many crossroads that affect everything else.

Every person I meet, I step into their lives, if only by briefly passing by them on the street. Every choice I make, I affect something else, even if only to influence my next move. Every experience I have, whether good or bad, spills ink onto the painting that is my life and draws another line in the image until my world is full of color and an infinite amount of intersecting stories.

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This world is not just built by those with power. It’s not just influenced by people how’ve made a major, mainstream difference. Everyone, including you and me, are a part of this world. The massive web of fate, weaving through the tales of our lives isn’t made to lock us in place, but to remind us that we are a part of it. We have a place in it, and no matter which role we choose to play, this place is still our home.

It’s okay for me to have bad days, to get angry and lose my cool for a while. It’s okay for me to take the bad with the good and learn from that. It’s okay for me to struggle and break and heal and grow. It’s okay for me to exist and dream of something more for myself and others.

Because even if I don’t accomplish those dreams, I dreamt them. Even if I don’t complete what I start building, I introduced it to the world. Even if I don’t convince everyone, I inspired someone who will inspire someone else.

And when I remember that, I don’t feel so tired anymore.

Alright everyone, time to party to our hearts content while we still can before everyone miraculously forgets that the LGBTQA+ community exists along with all of the history and important, controversial discussions that will inevitably leave with it due to it becoming less profitable to advertise during the other 11 months of the year.

Self-Love Ritual


One of my absolute, most favorite things to do is to take a long, relaxing bath! And due to the calming, healing, and cleansing properties of that activity, it also doubles as a perfect space for self-love spells and rituals!

Today, I’ll be going over how to set up your own bath-time, self-love ritual that will suit your own personal needs and tastes. So let’s jump right in!

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I have once again located my old antique paper fan, my amethyst vial, and my tiny music box; all of which have left me quite delighted!

This, as a result of slowly pouring over my belongings as I slowly and lovingly read each and every book I own, watch every movie, play every game, try on every article of clothing, and adore every single object one-by-one!

Then, and only then, will I be able to make the decision of allowing it to stay or letting it go. Personally, I do this cleansing practice every three or four years. It’s crazy how much can change in such a small amount of time!

Out with the old, yet the memories stay.
The clutter discarded, the important remains.
Each item I marvel with curious hands
is to stay or to go, based on my commands.
Should it no longer serve me and impede my path,
I’ll cast it aside without looking back.
For what smothers the hearth also muddles the mind
and those prices add up ‘til they become a bind.

The sky very suddenly turned yellow. Now everything outside is tinted yellow. It’s quite pretty with all the mellow rain.

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