#depressing things
I’m going numb again.. I don’t want to but it feels like home..
Why haven’t you killed yourself yet?
Reblog if you would end your life in a heart beat if it didn’t affect anyone negatively
“Sometimes you don’t realize there is underlying trauma until it surfaces to the top, and you wonder where it’s been all along and why it resurfaced when you were getting better. But that’s when you realize that it’s a test that must be passed, a wave that must be surfed and a scar that must be filled. And once it’s all passed, you can begin to heal again. And you realize the beauty that you can always, always heal again, and again.”
- g.d (limitless)
“And I hope that the love you’re searching for feels like the first ray of sun hitting your face.”
- g.d (the sun)
“If you drown, allow yourself to feel the depth of the ocean. And then resurface when you know that’s the deepest you can ever go. And promise to never to go beyond that.”
- g.d (but it’s okay if you do)
“I want to love you between my sheets, baby. Shower you with kisses and leave marks where nobody can see them. I want to be the one that makes you see the stars and the moon. Be the one who knows what you like and how you like it. The one who knows what makes you smile like that.Be the one you seek out at night for more than just a hug. I want to be more and be forever. I want to be yours baby, forever and ever. I want to be the one you love between the sheets.”
- g.d (sheets)
“I hope to love with the same abundance I choose to read. Endlessly and wildly.”
- g.d
“and moments like today remind me that the monsters continue to live inside my head, even if they’ve been silent for too long.”
- g.d (it’s never ending)
“I told him I was too me to be a part of his world. He smiled and caressed my cheek, his lips hovering over mine as he whispered, “and that’s why I love you so much baby, you’re everything I’ve ever dreamed of.””
- g.d (love me for me)
“And this is to my mom. Ma, you deserve the world that you dreamed of giving me. You deserve the love you’ve showered me with and times infinity. You deserve everything you were robbed off, you deserve the stars and moons that you were told that you were not worthy of. Ma, you deserve everything the world did not give you. You deserve the world and I am sorry if I or the world ever made you that you deserved less than that. Everything that I am right now and everything I will be is because you were there every step of the way. And today I want to say you are worthy of so much and I am sorry if you ever thought you weren’t. You deserve everything and I will try my best to make sure you know that. And all the ‘I love you’ will fall short in comparison to everything you’ve done but I love you. I love you, I love you, I love you.”
g.d. (ma)
**this is my edit**
The 2nd clip makes me cry inside I love Stefan and Elena together ugh:/ I feel myself self slowly braking again and I’m 2 weeks away to my clean goal and I’m not gonna let myself break.
Isn’t it funny how something that use to be the worst habit like cutting,carving and burning took over your life, but then all of a sudden its just easy to stop..?
i have been self harming for a year and a half and the longest i have ever gone is 6-7 weeks.. i am currently at 5 weeks and my goal is 8+ weeks. it use to be all i would think about.. 24/7 i would self harm once, twice maybe even 3 times? a day depending in what was going on… i have self harmed not only at home but at school as well.
i remembered one time i was so depressed and didn’t have blade and i was out shopping with one of my best friends and i bought a package of pencil sharpeners and took the blades out cause i was so desperate.
now that i think of it i just think of how i don’t want to be that person and how gross that is, to be so addicted like that, i have no longer wanted to self harm in like 5 months it just doesn’t really appeal to me anymore but when shit happens that’s all i really know to do so i trying to fix that and change that into new habits that are good.!!!
although i say that.. ever since i slowed down and stopped self harming i have started starving myself and am under weight but i will be trying harder to recover as i need to be strong to susceed in my sport,
-Depressed mess (B)
ily all stay strong xoxo
check out my instagram @you.wrecked.me._
Back at 4 weeks clean!!!
In over a year and a half the longest IV gone was 6ish- 7 weeks! My goal is past that and I know I can do it☺️
“I’m scared that if I let myself be happy for even one moment, that the world’s just going to come crashing down. And I don’t know if I can survive that.
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