#ed struggles

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You know how when you stand up n you dont necessarily get “dizzy” so much as your vision gets a little speckled with tiny tiny black dots n you hear this ringing that drowns out all other noise n you have this strange pressure in your head till it goes away?

Yay!

⚠️TW - Vivid and Visible Bones In Pictures⚠️

Let me know if this is crossing the line because I WILL take it down if anyone feels it necessary

OkNOW I’m at 115lbsfinally

Through rigorous and exhausting exercise and countless sleepless night and 4 years of this bullshit I roughly have the body shape I want

Now I just need to proportionally lose 15-20 more pounds. Thinking rationally I know that wont happen perfectly so maybe another 4 years of this bullshit will finally get me where I want to be :,)

Redoing this cause the rational part of my brain was like….yeah way too many creeps on here to keep that last BC up. Plus I look so gross so…yea

normal > sucked in > normal > pushed out

Its gross but its interesting :/

Measuring health by weight is total ass but I dont have one of those things that measures your body fat %

Weight sucks lol I just wanna look skinny and attractive, that’s all.

▪︎Been trying to take consistent body checks over the past week n I just dropped my phone on my fucking eye socket bones and I’m HEATED

▪︎I also cant tell how much I way anymore and I’m so mad. My mom is leaving sometime at noon tmr/today so thank gOD but I’m so scared…

I love how roughly 50% of this community post pictures of women/men/people who clearly weigh more than us and are fully developed,grown ass women/men/ppl yet we starve ourselves expecting to look like/similar to them…. ( ._.)

If that doesn’t apply to you dont start invalidating yourself cause you being in this community is enough to qualify you as “sick”. Recognize that I said “roughly 50%”, not “everyone"

Having Gen-z’s take over ed-social media was NOT a good idea

I’m not doing good with eating, or rather with not eating, and I hate myself for it just oh so much. I just wanna be skinny and attractive is that too much to ask???????

Let’s Cut the Shit:

Most of us are not pro/do not want to encourage people to engage in behaviors of ed’s…

But we ALL know damn well that posting all this is just as encouraging to other people as it is ourselves. Like people posting a huge list of tips n positive outcomes from this ed stuff n then at the bottom adding a half hearted “I dOnT prOmoTE eAtInG dIsorDerS”or“Im nOt pRo thIs iS jUst fOR mE” like cmon bro, just put a TW and be done with it.

▪︎ Aslo, if you’re “not pro” then STOP using the hashtags “pro ana” “pro mia” cause you know damn well what you doing.

▪︎Also EXPLAIN what the TW is dont just say tw

That’s all

TW - Body Check, Weight & Calorie Rant

I’m getting a bit paranoid at the idea that I somehow gained cause I cant really see my ribs like I did a couple days ago n like Sunday I had a bad eating day (over 600 I’m certain) n since then havent been able to weigh n ik if I’m above or below 121 based on how much my ribs show when I suck in n I cant see them too well I dont think but also I’ve seen minor changes in where I lose weight ever since I’ve been losing n gaining the same 15-17 pounds over 4 years n I dont know what to think!!

Beautiful ass men be like…

Weighed myself again, its says I’m 116.2

Not sure if it true, but I weighed all round the kitchen n it said the same each time sooo…we’ll see ;)

I think my parents are onto me again, idk. The vibe of the house is strange, particularly my mom

I love how every time I complain/rant abt something it gets “resolved” like the next day‍♀️

Anyway, I was able to weight myself and surprisingly enough I’m 117.8. So more 118 than 117 but y'know how it is.

I’m getting really annoying back aches, are my bones finally screaming for calcium lol (a genuine question, it’s been a real problem lately)

My semi-inactivity is due to the fact that I am currently planning my YouTube Channel :)

And I’m a fat b/tch so y'know

Btw I’ve finally figured out that my desired fashion style is Alternative so I’m happy to finally figure that out

Mom made dinner last night that I couldn’t get out of and it was well over 1000 cals and I’m still so depressed and disgusted over it.

I’m hoping to go to a friends house Saturday and secretly go to a party to just get high n wasted n I wanted to be 110 by then but now it probably won’t happen even if i do go :(((

I think I have a hernia causs there’s a squishy ball in my stomach that shows up after exercise that hurts and causes chest pain; so yeah I might die, and?

Havent weighed today, probably still weigh the same anyway.

Imma wear this for my senior pictures when the new dates come up since I missed dit the first time rip.

Unpopular opinion

But those shoes yall keep swooning over look whack n dirty as hell, stop it

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