#ed stuff
i haven’t eaten anything sweet in a while and i can confidently say that i’m not triggered to binge
fuck chocolate. i hate it. it’s so damn triggering.
i’ve binged. and then cut myself. great. i thought i was finally over this, but i guess i never will
all i need is a flat tummy for fuck’s shake
the amount of food i’ve consumed these past few days is insane. fuck family gatherings
i’m so tired of having to face the same problems over and over again. like seriously i’ve been struggling with my body image and relationship with food for 3.5 fucking years. i’m actually starting to believe that i will never escape this. fuck
i need to stop making up excuses to eat all the time… like fuck. how will i ever lose that weight, if i just keep stuffing my face??
what if i was skinnier?? you’d like me better then, wouldn’t you?
i feel so ashamed of myself right now and the only thing that can comfort me is starving
where’s my morning skinny??!!
i am bloated af. thanks, period.
my face is all puffy and massive and i fucking hate it
I NEED TO KEEP ON LOSING WEIGHT!!!
after all this time i’ve started feeling dizzy again. that means i’m doing fine, right?
my scale doesn’t work. like seriously why does everything go downhill? fuck
Today’s calories : 1389
will i ever escape the 4 digits?
why do i make everything so complicated? like why can’t i just eat a fucking meal and move on with my life or eat when i’m hungry and stop when i’m full? why can’t i just be normal??
Today’s calories : 2214
i just want this to be over
i binged. i’m so fucking ashamed and disappointed of myself. i wanna scream, but i can’t ‘cause they’re going to hear me and think i’m like insane. fuck
You know how when you stand up n you dont necessarily get “dizzy” so much as your vision gets a little speckled with tiny tiny black dots n you hear this ringing that drowns out all other noise n you have this strange pressure in your head till it goes away?
Yay!