#ftm transgender

On a scale of 1 to Summer’s Eve, how douchey is this selfie?

I have my first appointment at Charing Cross GIC in a week, I’ve previously been at Tavistock for a couple of years until now. If anyone has any questions about the UK GIC process feel free to shoot me a message. if you want my personal blog I can also hit you up on there!

-Ryan

I just went to a trans picnic. It was so much fun. I also went to Comic-Con this morning, dressed as Grell from Black Butler. She’s my wife, really. And Germany from Hetalia is my husband! 

-Grayson

So happy to call this body mine

I was so afraid of not passing without my beard. Thanks Colin for the awesome new haircut, really boosted my confidence.

Super excited to start school next week! ‍

1 year 6 months on testosterone!!!

Felt like I passed really well in the picture I’m only 5'2 so sometimes it’s tough haha.

3 months post op top surgery

Been feeling really good about my body lately and loving my beard and tattoos haha -Alex (He/Him)

1 year 5 months on testosterone

Super happy with my new tattoo so far! Thanks so much ZaneI’m hoping to have a sleeve by the end of the summer

Just a wolf searching for his pack

Getting more confident with my body everyday! 1 year pre T vs. 1 year 4 months on T

Been feeling really good about my chest lately. 2 months post op today!! (he/him)

Really love my stubble, but wish I had a beard lol 1 year 4 months on T. (He/Him)

Facial hair finally growing back (He/him)

Living for this new ink done by Voodoo at Voodoo Monkey Tattoo NY (Also 1 year 4 Months on Testosterone)

I admit today; I let my own insecurities get the better of me. I had a hard time getting through the day without something making me aware of just how feminine I can look at times. I don’t know. I just felt very off all day. I didn’t want to admit how off I was either to my girlfriend. It started with how much effort it took to bind me down. Right now, I don’t have a proper binder. I have two compression tank tops and sport bras to hold down a DD chest not to mention I’m overweight. No I could stand to lose 50 lbs. I don’t know where or how to start, but I have to figure out something.

So that didn’t help. I had to put on two sports bras, two compression tanks, and a lose fitting t-shirt and I still felt just like it wasn’t enough. My body feels like a cage right now. I just want it to feel right for a change. It’s getting kind of hard to watch other people in their transition on Youtube because it makes me aware of just how far I have to go. I’m truly happy for them, but I want them. Envy is not a good color on me. I want that. I want that. I want that. I want to be assured and comfortable in my skin. I want to present and live full time as a man. I want to be seen as a man. I want people to recognize me as a man. I want that so much and it feels like I won’t be able to achieve that sometimes. 

Followed by the crippling doubt, it hurts so much. I want a person who pats me on the back and lets me know everything is OK and I’m just letting my own poor self-confidence downtrodden me. I’m letting my own doubt suffocate me. I’m letting my own insecurities weigh heavy in my head. I need to stop! Maybe because I’m so tired of feeling trapped within my skin or maybe I’m just that self conscious. Will it always be like this? Can’t I be positive that I can make this happen for me? 

I CAN graduate college and make something of my life! I CAN be a good parent to my son! I CAN live life as me; as a man! I DON’T have to doubt that my future will be good if I make it happen!