To the most amazing, most courageous, most wonderful woman I had to privilege to meet and share part of my life with. I don’t know if you’ll ever read this but I want you to know how deeply sorry and ashamed I am that I hurt you. It tears me up inside knowing that I hurt you, knowing that I pushed you away. That was never my intention, things went a little crazy. It never meant to.
My soulmate, my twin flame. I would do anything to go back in time and change what has happened. I love you with all my heart. You came to me when we were both broken, both seeking rescue, help, love and we healed one another’s souls. We didn’t find love. Love found us and it took us on a wild ride. I cannot forget our nights spent together, I cannot forget the family we were building, I cannot forget the fun we had and I feel so broken inside that it ended this way. I’m lost without you, my soul is lost. I would do anything for another chance. I would never hurt you, never again. I want to make you happy. I want to show you my love. I want a life with you.
I love this woman so much that words alone cannot express what I feel. I lost her because I forgot to remind myself every day how lucky I was and to make sure she knew it too. I love you baby.
I now realize that Tracy was probably in love with Brian since the very beginning. She said to me recently that she had always felt the same but then he changed and that was why she decided to be with him instead of me. Then I thought about all the times they went out and it was 2-3 times a week and for 6-8 hours. I always thought it was him wanting to be together so much, but now I think it was her. I agreed to let her have sexual encounters outside the marriage as long as I was included and knew but she made it a relationship. I feel like she was having an affair and lying to me. So for probably 2 years or more I had been an oblivious fool. And yet my heart still hurts and I want what we had. . And all I want to do is ask her and hear the the answer that I know will destroy me.
The real Tracyxoxoxo. A true natural beauty. You still make my heart flutter everyday. I hope that you somehow find this because I don’t know how else to reach you. I love you and I’m in love with you.
