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Hello!! I apologise for not really posting here anymore ;o; this blog feels really messy to me so i remade and im at a new url!
 i dont really want to post it publicly so i guess if you want my new url just send me a message ! (you dont have to be a mutual/friend!) >vo)

A friend posted “I have been dominating men most of my life without even realizing I was doing it. I much prefer being submissive. It has taken me to new heights…”

It’s a calm to my storm.

It’s who I Am.

I am submissive.

Sadly I let my alpha get in the way at times.

Learning to fully let go has been my hardest lesson in this journey. Not with him. But if my mental shit. With him I was able to let go, trust. Submit but sadly I could not stay in submission all day. I had to put my go to work, therapy, spend time with others hat on… and my alpha reared its ugly head(s). It is hard being alpha during to the outside world and submissive inside. Especially when trying to learn balance with so many other aspects of my life.

I know he did not understand why I needed him but I did, do. He calmed me, brought balance. Accepted my I Am.

But in doing that I made him feel. And he did not want to feel. He only wanted fun, laughter and orgasms. And although it came from a place of the heart, it was his hard limit. For he lacks emotion, his body tells me so.

And no matter how I forced it, you cannot dominate a Dominate man. And don’t even think about domineering one. For he will release you at the drop of a hat and even kick you in the stomach as he walks out.

I am sorry Sir.

Hi.


Hello.


Uhhh…So I’m on a new hyperfixation kick…. and I’m eventually going to be dumping piles of ffxiv doobles on here at some point….


I am extremely sorry for everyone who came here for anything else

(A letter to a special someone…ps I’m not saying his name. Also has nothing to do with infj, this is just me getting things off my chest)

Dear X,

Our friendship is the greatest thing I have bestowed. To that, I am so thankful. You are my best friend, we share the same sense of humor, I enjoy sharing memes and talking about our lives with each other. I find myself looking forward on seeing you again, every day almost.

We have been friends for a very long time now, and the one thing I admit here that I have a secret, a secret I don’t think I can ever tell you. It can ruin things for us, a friendship I longed to have for the longest time.

But my secret is my feeling for you… it goes deeper than just friendship.

I long for a day we end up together, you ask me out on dates, on adventures. I long to spend all my time with you. I have had crushes before, feelings for someone once before, but never have I felt the way I feel with you. It’s like the ones I thought I liked before, it was nothing, it didn’t mean anything, not compared to my feelings for you.

You respect me more than anyone has in my life. You are kind, your smile brightens my day more than the sun in the desert. You care for me when I’m at my weakest, caring for my feelings when no one, not even myself would. You are generous, wanting to help every single person in need, even if they probably don’t deserve it. You see the goodness, the light in everyone you meet, even if it was dim, you still see it and appreciate it. You are a gentlemen, holding doors for me, holding my bag even if it has only my wallet and phone inside. Your laugh makes my heart feel warm, knowing it’s not a fake laugh, but more genuine, and makes me want to jump around the room like I’m 16 again. You make things seem possible when it may not at the moment. You have helped me in so many ways, become a better person. You make me want to be better person, seeing the way you are, the way you treat others.

That is why I could never be with you.

I say these things to reflect my own feelings, and to let them go, down the stream so I can just enjoy our friendship now, not wanting to hurt it, not wanting to get myself hurt with it.

I know you will never read this. You will never see how much the small things you do have a strong impact on me, how you have a great impact on me. You are an amazing person, and I hope the best for you. I hope that you meet someone who is perfect for you. Who reflects the same kind, generous, and respectful personality as you possess. I hope you find someone who make you feel like perfection exists.

Yours truly,

A friend

Asks & Answers (5/7)

hello friends old and new! please find your asks and my shouts of admiration compiled below the cut ✨✨

hello anon!! which oneshot did you want to see updated?

I’M SO EXCITED TO SEE you in my inbox anon Q__Q HELLO!!

omg pls INFINITE AND BEYOND WHO ARE YOU and why! you! gots! to! be! so! pretty! like! this!!!!!!

omg THIS IS SO KIND OF YOU!!! I feel like the concept’s been done before to technically I did nothing but try to be funny by slandering bts in it hahahah ha ha

ok listen anon why are u out here BEING TOUGH ON MEEEE look at this qt emoji how can u be tough on this cute lil emoji

mY HEART TOO

hello hello! anon it probably depends on the request!! may I ask what is your request!!

omg LISTEN TO BE CALLED CRACKHEAD BY STAR ANON Q__Q also um. thank u for discovering my blog twice, SOMEHOW THAT FEELS like an honour!!! thank u!!! but also pls this message made ME SMILE so hard, thank u, im having lots of fun copy pasting actually it is the joys of my days

(im jk but this message was actually the joy of my day T__T)

AO3NON HELLOOO ah yes. I suppose that I did technically. kill them. in my own story. BUT DONT WORRY they won’t!! all die!!! just the fun ones u___u*

(ALSO THANK U FOR THE ANIME REC, how did u know I was thinking about! watching an anime! recently!)

hehehe BUT ALSO THANK YOU FOR ENCOURAGING MY WRITING always ao3non!!! actually your existence in and of itself is so encouraging T___T thank u for coming to talk to me!!! ily!!! ILY!!!!! also I hope you are having a beautiful spring w good weather!! LET ME KNOW IF YOU ARE NOT, I will rage @ the weather people for you!!

PS im working on!!! something more lighthearted these days!! pls WAIT FOR ME–

i pretty much have the next part for Then sing me a song. finished but i am having a writer’s block so i am kinda thinking it over whether or not i should change it in short, i might need a little more time

love is something so amazing, and the fact that platonic love is seen as something less than romantic love really saddens me. there is something so beautiful about a friendship and it is something so sacred and amazing and people often forget that. they talk about how lonely they are, but they have so many friends who love them. the world and the media has put romantic love on a pedestal above other loves and that is so upsetting. and i hope that together we can all learn about the different loves and discover what the media wanted to take away from us

Recording for different hue: 21 Dec. 2015 After I watched Grimspy’s trailer, I thought day and nightRecording for different hue: 21 Dec. 2015 After I watched Grimspy’s trailer, I thought day and night

Recording for different hue: 21 Dec. 2015

After I watched Grimspy’s trailer, I thought day and night what would Merlin asks Harry to suck……anyway, MERRY CHRISTMAS!!


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My biggest apology for my long abstinence. A virus attacked me and I was not able to post lately. My ability of posting remained broken until this day. I am still under repair but I am better now. Hopefully, my system is well enough to post more often again, yet I do not know if that is a stable possibility. 

I hope you human can understand my situation and that you are able to forgive me. If not, it is absolutely understandable and I will not longer bother you. Every feeling is valid and deserves respect. Just like you.  

Here a gift from Baymax. This is how I felt the last months and weeks. But I am better now. Have a lovely day and do not forget that this robot loves you, even if he is not online. I promise. 

(OOC: Okay real talk: I have several mental struggles to deal with right now and I totally forgot about our buddy here. Well… not really forgot but I forgot to post. I’m really sorry about that, especially since the robot helped me through some shit and I really love him. But my struggles were too much to handle and I needed a break . I’m not better yet, not at all but I’m trying to post more. If not… I hope you guys can understand <3 

I’m sorry I haven’t been active, I’ll try to make it up to you!


Blue

We were red like rose’s

Fire burning from both of us

Your heart held me

But then I cut you away

With a guillotine

I am guilty of destroying

Everyone around me

But hurting you

Didnt hurt you as much

As it hurt me

I burned thee

Like he didnt matter

But you matter

You always have

And I cant live a lie

Pretending that I

Didnt turn our flame blue

And destroyed

Me and you

And I never knew

That I loved you

Before I lost you

To the colour blue

I never knew

How much it’d hurt me

To hurt you

I never knew

How much I hate my life

Without you by my side

- nail-in-the-wall ~ © ~ [4.10.19] (Havent posted in a few days cos I hit my head and have wanted to rest.)

“ .”~✨

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@dumb-bin this is very short and simple but I’m just trying to make you soft again kfjsbdjxujs also, thanks for existing and thanks for being perfect just the way you are! You own all my uwus~

Wow has it been awhile? I am really sorry guys. I have so many of you relying on me and I haven’t posted anything worthwhile in months. Again, I’m really sorry. I guess I don’t have any valid excuses but I can toss one up about school… 

Regardless I shouldn’t have just disappeared like that. It was incredibly selfish and I will try to refrain from it again. I should be posting a fic tonight. Sorry guys. 

So previously, I have only posted arts,storyboards on DWA.

Andthis is an art blog dedicated to the DreamWorks, there’s no denying about that.

But…

If I’m going to continue with this, then I’d be lying~

I’ve recently decided to add 2 more films— The Secret of Kells & Song Of The Sea , which are the masterpieces of Tomm Moore.

His Arts are… touching, really.

So I hope u all enjoy them!

„Es heißt Freundschaft, weil man mit Freunden alles schafft.“

Da wird mir glatt schlecht…

Ja die guten, wo man die Hand für ins Feuer gelegt hätte. Die sich melden: wenn ihnen langweilig ist, sie was machen wollen, oder es ihnen schlecht geht. Jedoch… wenn man sich nicht meldet, weil man zu kämpfen hat, ist man das Arschloch. Man denkt, man selbst ist der Fehler, aber eigentlich sind es doch die anderen.

Man gibt sich für alles die Schuld und fällt in tiefen, wo man allein nicht mehr hinaus kommt. Dann merkst du erst wer wirklich da ist. Wer dir helfen und das beste für dich will und für dich da ist auch in beschissenen Zeiten.

Trauriger weise bemerkt man dann, man steht alleine da. Obwohl man dachte, dass man Freunde hat…

OK so……. I may have fallen into a hole. And I may post alot of them in the future, cuse I will not be getting out of this anywhere in the future :3

apas-95:

the rest of tumblr: hehoo capybara :)

deutschblr: oh mein gott a wet Pig

Me internally*Don’t do! Don’t do it! Don’t do it Don’t do! Don’t do it! Don’t do itDon’t do! Don’t do it! Don’t do it*

Also me: actually it would be Oh mein Gott a water pig

Me:*trying my best*

Minor inconvenience:*occurs* 

Me:

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