#nerves
There is this feeling I get after my heart breaks, metaphorically of course, I do know hearts are muscles and do not break, but when something that felt so real and so infinite ends, I cannot help but feel like my body is physically hurt.
It feels like my ribs are breaking, one after another, in different spots and they keep breaking and breaking, putting more and more pressure on my chest, making it impossible to breathe. I feel the air coming through my nose and never making it down my windpipe because it is being crushed by my chest collapsing into itself. There is sharp pain in my throat when air touches it and soon I cannot breathe at all. My eyes hurt, they are bloodshot, bleeding, blood dripping down my face onto the ground and it hurts. My body is shaking and there is no way to stop it, it moves with every inhale and exhale and even when my chest is broken down and barely gets air through, my body still shakes, my muscles keep cramping, contracting stronger and faster and at some point, my body does not handle it any more. It shuts down.
Then a new kind of pain begins. There is a headache I can feel right in the center of my forehead. It starts there, where the emotions are controlled, it starts where everything started to fall apart. If feels like every single cell there is shutting down, either dying or slowly burning to death. It almost feels like needles stabbing every single one of them, making the brain unable to control whatever is going on. It moves up and affects my thinking, making me believe there is nothing left for me in the world, making me believe, there is no plan, no future.The pain spreads to the top of my head, makes it unable to move, makes my whole body hurt again, all the ribs breaking, the body shaking, now it gets worse. It affects the vision and makes it even blurrier and all I see is him in front of me, everywhere I look and that hurts even more.
After my whole brain feels like it is bleeding out and being torn apart, the last part of brain starts to hurt. The little piece of where every perfect memory is stored, where memories of first dates, kisses, ‘I love you’s and so much more, live, that is the part that hurts the most. This little part is the main reason the whole brain is hurting, the only reason my body is breaking. The memory of perfect little moments of time we shared is why breakups make me think there is something physically wrong with me when it happens, because it does affect my whole body, it affects every cell that lives inside me and all of them start hurting at the same time.
1.2.22
Finally graduating tomorrow after a year and a half of finishing my degree.
(Clearing out drafts - 21/3/22)
Note to my future self: next time don’t confess to him over a letter that has to cross almost all the world. I know it sounds romantic but the waiting is going to kill you.
This video showcases how to build your own Tri-Phase sounds with the use of 2 Oscillators.
The E-Stim Audio Suite is available on:
https://estimaudio.bandcamp.com/album/e-stim-audio-suite
The sound you are hearing is recorded with the build in recorder, what you are hearing is Mp4 (Recorded in WAV encoded to Mp4-Mp3).
The right scope is of course a video capture of a real analogue scope, we hope it is clear that this is not included with the E-Stim Audio Suite, and serves only for demonstration purposes.
Psst: We are having a new give away on the forum, where you can win a free E-Stim Audio Suite + Tri-Phase packs I+II, for more information visit:
http://estimaudio.freeforums.org/free-goodie-give-away-asteroids-challenge-t74.html
(We’ll post the give away in a separate Tumblr note as well, later on)
“Nerves”
Elektra: Assassin #2 (September 1986)
Frank MillerandBill Sienkiewicz
Epic/Marvel Comics
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Me wanting to be interviewed about my books.
Also me: “shit. That means I need to actually answer questions, who knew??”
Day 11 of #mermay is nervous about being a day late, sorry! I finished this one pretty late, and went to bed without posting it (oops). One of my friends suggested that I do a bunch of different merms with different emotions, so this is one for @lexbex05. : ) Hopefully I’ll get today’s up in a little bit (but it may be tomorrow, let’s be real).
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#study #time #studying #student #distance #learning #animals #nerves #writing #words #notes #instalike #future #knuckledown
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Title: Nerves
Shit happens from time to time.
YO I GET MY PERMIT IN MARCH I’M SO EXCITED AND NERVOUS AT THE SAME TIME I NEED TIPS AND SHIT
Descending tracts in the spinal cord. Descending tracts are generally motor, and are divided into pyramidal tracts (cotricospinal and corticobulbar - i.e. the voluntary ones) and extra-pyramidal (all the others).
Corticospinal tract: carries motor fibres. Has an anterior (15%) and a lateral (85%) branch. Anterior controls the axial muscles while the lateral controlslimbs and skilled movements. They decussate in slightly different places, with the LCS crossing in the lower medullary pyramids, and the ACS at the spinal level they exit through.
Corticobulbar: not seen on this diagram because it doesn’t actually make it into the spinal cord. It terminates on cranial nerve motor nuclei to deal with motor functions of cranial nerves: facial expression, extra-ocular, etc.
Vestibulospinal: controls balance. It is special because it remains ipsilateral. Someone with a lesion of the vestibulospinal tract will fall (due to loss of balance control) towards the side of the lesion.
Reticulospinal: deals with reflexes. Has two branches, the pontine branch does extensor reflexes exclusively, while the medullary does both extensor and flexor. It also stays ipsilateral.
Tectospinal: another reflex type tract, that responds to visual and auditory stimuli. It is the reason that blind people can sometimes turn their head towards a flashing light without seeing it, but sensing it. Spooky.
Rubrospinal: bit vestigial in humans to be honest, most of its functions have been superseded by the corticospinal tract with which it joins in the lateral column of the spinal cord.
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Final presentation today got me like ^^^ it’s of @firofficial of course anytime I do anything of them I ace it! #for #firfans #fallinginreversefans #ronnieradke #ronnieradkefans #school #college #collegelife #omg #communicationsmajor #communication #nerves
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