#poemoftheday

So thank you for showing up,

Thank you for choosing to love me when I was ready to break-

You didn’t have to.

-I love you too

I know you’re sad, so I won’t tell you to have a good day. Instead, I advise you to simply have a day. Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don’t give up on yourself just yet. Until then, have a day.

Do you know when you find you’re on the edge? When one day, for some stupidity, tears come to your eyes. When one word too many, an insignificant gesture hit you deeply. It does not mean being frail or weak, but having endured too much, too long.

For once I would like to speak to someone who understands how I really feel.

The saddest thing is when you are feeling real down, you look around and realize that there is no shoulder for you.

Sometimes, you just have to stay silent, because no words can explain what’s going on in your mind and heart.

I lied and said I was busy. I was busy, but not in a way most people understand. I was busy taking deeper breaths. I was busy silencing irrational thoughts. I was busy calming a racing heart. I was busy telling myself I am okay. Sometimes, this is my busy, and I will not apologize for it.

I already said too much. I already shared too much, and I want all my secrets back. I hate getting close to people these days. I always regret sharing too much, caring too much, doing too much, feeling too much.

He said: “Don’t you feel lonely living in your own little world?”

She whispered: “Don’t you feel powerless living in other peoples worlds?”

If only this anxiety didn’t dictate all of my thoughts morning until night, a constant reminder to be afraid, to not get too comfortable because danger is always there, waiting, ready to strike at any moment.

And she finally gave up, dropped the fake smile as a tear run down her cheek and she whispered to herself “I can’t do this anymore…”

Have you ever just sat with your friends realizing you’re the least important friend in the group and that it wouldn’t make difference if you were there or not?

Faking a smile is easier than explaining why you’re sad.

I realized today that I have stopped living life. I’m literally just trying to get to the next day, just living in the thought of tomorrow. I’m not living, I’m waiting. And the trouble is, I don’t know what I’m exactly waiting for. I’m kind of scared for what it might be.

Lifetime after

misguided lifetime,

I find myself

rediscovering the same path

I first paved

at seventeen.

Comfortable,

forgiving and

exhilarating.

Forever,

my most intimate place.

Something about

this time

made my bones feel different

as if they sat inside me

a little lighter,

and held me together

a little tighter.

Sweet sister,

you’ve known me longer

than anyone.

Intertwined yet-

visibly divided,

we’d been on different planets

while under one roof.

See for what I think

Spreading words

That never come out

See for what I think

An encrypted book

With its words fallen out

See for what I think

Therefore you’ll see me

Because I’m standing here

In silence but not within

•Liziane Passig•

i wish i was a little older

just enough to make me more wanted

i wish i was a little prettier

just enough so you would love me back

i wish i was infinite

just enough so you could never say i wasn’t enough

i crave you in the night

i twist and turn, but i cannot sleep until morning light

how am i supposed to fix what broken beyond repair

all i can see are your brown eyes and dark hair

i want you in my arms

and that dream keeps me sleeping through my alarms

please, i need you here

i am fading away

and that’s my greatest fear

im dying

and my parents dont think that im trying

forgiveness is hard when youre the one to blame

i was just a pawn in my own stupid game

they dont watch out for kids like us at all

theyre praying for our downfall

its not getting better

but its warm in my sweater