#poems on tumblr
- Franz Kafka
there are poems etched on the back of my throat. I can’t whisper them out, but they all scream your name.
- unaiza n, the center of every poem is that I love you.
I wrote the following six years ago when I was 15, my dad was abusive and my mom ignored it I just found it in an old notebook. A child should never feel this much pain and fear. Someday I hope I can make this little girl proud.
Yellow Oak Tree:
The sun is hot and burning
The earth is cruel and harming
Fear surrounds the innocent
Can nothing be saved?
But as I lay beneath you shade a cloak of serenity cascades around me
I am safe
Under the yellow oak tree
Free from judgement
Protected from ridicule
Safe from death
Under the yellow oak tree.
I just wish I could tell you that I miss you,
I’m mad at you but I still love you
And I want you back in my life.
The worst you can say is no, so why am I so scared?
I can be mean to myself
Like I’m mean to everybody else
At least no one can say I’m not fair
It’s a messy life but we only get one
And I’m trying my best
To do it right
Sometimes it feels easier to just leave
Cut people out of your life the second they cross you
Never let anyone get too close
Look out for yourself and let everyone else do whatever it is they do.
It’s also lonely going through life by yourself
So worried about others that you end up locked away in your room every night
Wondering if anyone will ever actually know who you really are instead of the person you pretend to be.
I’ve been tossed from the road I once was on
The path before me is paved with uncertainties
My mind is lost in a labyrinth of turmoil
Now all that I know is nothing at all
I’ve decided to go to war.
Not with anyone in particular but with my life.
For too long I have just followed life wherever it led me,
My life took away friends, family, and opportunities from me all while I was too busy being at war with what what going on in my own head.
Now, the fear, anxiety, and depression I have that were once my enemy have issued a treaty.
And we are going to take back my life,
Together.
Why does the sun set?
The night lasts so much longer then the day.
Even though I know the sun will always come back,
The night frightens me.
As the darkens creeps in I lose sight of the future.
This all encompassing darkness hiding me from my loved ones and passions.
Still, at any moment, I know, the sun will rise.
So I will be patient, and have hope knowing that soon sunshine will wash over me again.
Wether it’s the hope of love
The grief of love
The lesson of love
Or the regret of love
Once you have loved
It always remains
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You said you wanted all of me
So here I am
Darkness
Melancholy
Rage
Why are you walking away?
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You know what you’ve done
But to say it out loud
Is too brutal a reality
It would be suicide by honesty
And you are such a coward
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I remember a time when
I thought he would change
When I thought that my love
Would take his anger away
What a dangerous choice
I was willing to make
To sacrifice myself for a man
Who could never be saved
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When I look back at my life
I only recognize it for a moment
And then it’s gone
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I am so tired
It doesn’t matter how much I sleep
The sadness and worry
Are too heavy for me
And everytime I put them down
To breathe a sigh of relief
I hear the sound of fear and anger
Begin to slowly creep
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I remember his hands
The way they held me so tightly
The way they let me go
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Poetry is my lover
She always let’s me in
To cry
To listen
To confess all my sins
She found me voiceless
Wishing my tears were diamonds
So that I could buy back some time
Her poems come out of my heart
My eyes
My mind
She is so soft
And she never leaves
Thank you
My sweet lover
Poetry
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Was this earth not created through chaos?
Our universe makes love with the clash
Creation is the child of collision
A galaxy of grief
Atom + Eve
Here because God simply said
BE
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