#sad girl
Only all the time.
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i’m sad tonight, how’re you? ✨
today is a sad day
Why do you leave me with watercolor eyes?!
June 20th 2020
After one year of collage I’ve seen what most people are today. I truly know this world is not worth living in, for me. They have finally succeeded in making me so closed off and so numb to everything. I’ll still be a good person but I’ll never be the same.
So thank you, to all those people for making me another broken and numb person in this world.
The only difference is I will fix all those broken parts and make myself whole again unlike them.
How is everyone doing during this time? I for one I’m so stress and feeling very alone right now
11/2/2020
I’ve come to realize there is something deeply wrong with me and as much as I try not to be, I am a toxic person maybe not to others most likely just to myself but it’s probably the truth. I try my best to be a good person, a good friend but the feeling of being a outcast and the persistent thoughts that I’m not good enough and that I’m stupid control my mind. I hate the way I think, I hate that I don’t get it on the first go, I hate that I always feel like I’m the reason why everything comes apart. The feeling of consent numbness also makes not want to do anything but laying in bed.
Alone
Dead to the world
Numb
Why do I feel this way
Why dose it hurt
Why I’m I in pain
I thought I was over this
But I was getting better at masking my feelings
My heart it burns
It hurts
I hate you
And I hate me too
I want to be alone
But I also want someone comfort
I’m confused sad alone all over again
And this time I can’t even let anyone in
I’m dying by myself
Just another day of me regretting being born
After everyone leaves the saddest part is getting used to being all alone again
I’m so numb inside I literally feel hollow, nothing makes me laugh anymore and my heart hurts all the time. I feel like I’m dying I feel like I’m not going to make it, I can’t live like this I want to die
