#self hate
I stay awake at night cause I don’t even know what my favorite color is and I’m afraid I don’t have a real personality.
maybe its a good thing that people leave me early, ive noticed a trend with people that manage to put up with my depressed ass long enough to the point where serious feelings develop between the both of us.
i break their hearts, including mine, and its entirly my fault. i did it to my wife, and now i did it to my husband.
why, why do i cheat on them. its because im a whore, a leech, a slut. i dont deserve love. and they deserve so much more. idk if this is a cry for help or not. i just wanted to wollow in my own self pity.
Sun, 10 Apr 2022 15:45:50
