#spilled words
Reading a good book makes you forget the world we live in.
Put up another sturdy steel wall
Let sweet apathy be the motto
Every move is casual improv
Absolve myself of all desire
Stone cold callous absolutism
Ether of posthumous heartache
n.a.
If you could feel just a fraction of what I do
You could not see the world so pointless
But rather some grotesquely beautiful creature
covered with needles
n.a.
origami bones
Opening a dance of folded grace
crawling out from under the paper weight
these origami bones can’t stay
creased too long in one place
pressed precisely into position
but the scuffs and bruises of indecision
still mar complex arrangement of limbs
and so I collapse and start over again
n.a.
frozen in time
I put my hands in the snow
next to my favorite reflection
smiling into the ice as a snapshot was taken
if only we could numb joy
the way we can fingers
perhaps we’d find a way to let it linger
n.a.
Melatonin sets in
Like doves returning to nest
God sets them in motion
Circadian migration to circular paths
Not a musical but a solar dance
Blue orange black pink blue orange black
The moon and the sun choreograph
But why must we give the dark so many hours of ours?
Once I properly encounter Him I’ll ask
Why the rhythm of rest isn’t given the chance
To rest on an open eyed note through the night, once or twice
Without submitting eyes to substantial sacrifice
n.a.
“I finally left you like I never thought I would”
-Day 588
“Do you miss me like I miss you?”
-Day 587
“I warned you
To the boy who fell in love with me
You can’t say I didn’t warn you
Can’t call me a bitch
Like I didn’t already you that I was one
I wear my story on my sleeves
It’s not my fault you didn’t read in between the lines
I told you not to love me
I told you I was known to flirt with others
You should’ve read the terms and conditions before you checked you accepted
Because I will lie straight to your face and kiss you all in the same breath
My favorite color is red
Because it matches the flags that I bare
I get pleasure from playing games
You shouldn’t have stray to close
Now you are entangled in this web
I will haunt you at every place that you go
Every song that you hear
I’m not one for love
I told you that to begin with
I told you I would break your heart
So don’t you dare say I didn’t warn you
Sincerely
The girl you’ll never forget”
-Day 586
“I both love you and hate you, and it’s driving me insane”
-day 585
“I’m sorry that I still love you”
-Day 584
“Break my heart”
-Day 583
“You should never love a person like me because I’ll go from loving you to hating you in a matter of minutes.”
-Day 583
“I created the monsters that haunt me and they will follow me until the end of time.”
-Day 582
“I keep dreaming of you and waking up sad because those dreams will never become reality.”
-Day 581
“People always ask me how I can be friends with my ex’s and I tell them I can because I no longer love them like that but when in reality I don’t know how to let go of the ones I love.”
-Day 580
“I just want to feel like I matter to someone”
-Day 579