#the garden

here comes another day

where I clench to stay awake

here comes another day

where trauma becomes my fate

no issue to speak upon

as I trust in my strong will

I’ve made it many times before

and I can get through it again

control myself enough

to make it through the plane

to make it through the pain

how does this pain start?

I can clench away

here comes another day

where I clench to stay awake

here comes another day

where trauma becomes my fate

TELL ME THAT IVE GOTTA CLENCH TO STAY AWAKE

TELL ME THAT IVE GOTTA CLENCH THE PAIN AWA-AY

HERE COMES THE PAIN, I CAN BLOW IT AWAY

FIND A WAY TO COPE FOR ANOTHER DAY

SHARP PAIN COMING ON, AND IM BLACKED OUT

NEXT TIME IT COMES

IM NOT GONNA BACK OUT

…

RUN TO THE BACK
FIND A PLACE TO LIE DOWN

GET ON MY BACK
HOPE THE PAIN WILL DIE DOWN

ASHAMED OF MY MIND
ASHAMED OF MY BODY

FROM NOW ON
IM IN CONTROL

BUt can I keep it all up…?

…

here comes another day

where I clench to stay awake

here comes another day

where trauma becomes my fate

it’s a struggle of the mind

cause and effect upon my body

it will take over no longer

as long as my will is good

…not another day…

…where I clench to stay awake…

…not another day…

…where trauma becomes my fate…

everythinghasafacee:

i love this man

twin dads

Some art by me

Back to 2018

RIP 2020. Hope next year it will be easier to breathe. ✨

some messy sketches of the garden

“the garden admires you.”

louise glück, from descending figure; “the garden”