Лиля: Просто дело было не в том, что у него есть новая девушка. А в том, что это та самая девушка. Я думала это был типичный “one night stand”, а она беременна от него… Я в шоке. И… они женяться.
Психолог: Посмотрев на эту ситуацию с другой стороны - он не бросил ее с ребенком.
Лиля: Да, я понимаю, вы правы. Просто меня это разрывает изнутри. Тот факт, что он так быстро смог найти новую жизнь не дает мне покоя. Тот факт, что у него будет ребенок… что у такого отца будет ребенок - просто невыносим. Тот факт, что он точно все еще сидит на таблетках и скорее всего об этом не знает эта Трикси - меня ра-зры-ва-ет.
Я еще и наговорила такой херни Лиаму. Про то, что я зла на Мортена. Это его обидело, но я не могу ему врать и притворяться, что все нормально. Каждый раз когда я думаю о наших с Лиамом отношениях у меня в голове 2 мысли: первая - я люблю его, вторая - я не могу дышать.
Психолог: Вам непривычно. Лиам для вас та самая поддержка, которой не хватало с Мортеном.
Лиля: Меня это пугает.
Психолог: Это нормально ощущать сомнения о Лиаме, ведь для вас такие спокойные отношения в первый раз. Мортен оказал огромное влияние на вашу личность и полгода точно не достаточно, чтобы просто взять и забыть о нем. Но вам нужно отпустить жизнь Мортена. Понять, что это больше не ваша обязанность.
My therapist knows i like metaphors and she got me with this one.
“You’ve got two cups to take care of to be healthy. One is for your energy the other is for your tolerance. You empty the energy cup by doing stuff–errands, worrying about things, day to day life. The tolerance cup fills up on its own, everything that bothers you or hurts or makes stuff difficult. You have to take time, ON PURPOSE, to fill the first and empty the second. You have to do this as often as you can, especially when things get rough. Even a few drops makes a difference between hanging on and running out, or running over.”
I saw this post from one of my favorite artists. It reminded me that, even as a therapist, my role is not to “fix” someone or alter their emotions. I can simply sit and offer support.
Adj: (of a person)weak and delicate Easily damaged, fragile.
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Looking at the prompt for @inktober day 8, frail, I’m reminded how I used to equate frail to introverted. It’s often seen as a negative to be less talkative or “shy”. Over the years as a therapist, I’ve learned being introverted does not equate to being frail. Introverted is (for myself) more in line with being empathetic and an attentive listener while still being able to advocate for myself and clients.
[Tweet by Fran, @galacticidiots, saying, ‘Who needs therapy when AO3 is full of those 10-20K one shots where nothing happens except huge feelings and deep conversations that somehow make you feel the entire spectrum of human emotion.
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I prefer both, of course. But there are many things that I’d never even considered COULD be related before reading about them on AO3, never mind connecting them to my own experiences.
I still go read hurt/comfort to figure out which trauma I’m currently ready to process. I read about stupid Batkids getting lost in their own undercover identities while trying to figure myself out. I read about abuse while trying to parse my self-hatred. I read about good parents and siblings while isolating myself. I read about trauma recovery … while I continue to recover from trauma.
All about EMDR! A lot of people have been asking me how it works, so I made a silly little comic doodle on Illustrator (just with my mouse, sorry it’s sloppy) about my experiences with it. *I am by no means a doctor, so please do some research on your own before making any decisions to do EMDR!*
I’ve also seen a lot of videos on Youtube of “DIY EMDR,” I would VERY STRONGLY recommend NOT using those. EMDR opens your emotional brain up so fully that it’s very overwhelming, and having a trained professional there to assist you is invaluable.
Hey, friends! Mod Coral here, I was diagnosed with Complex PTSD a month and a half ago, and I’ve started a blog detailing the healing process so far! :)
hey all, so as it turns out, my job is scheduling me way less for the next few weeks, just as I started therapy :’))) and for my insurance to cover any of my therapy, I need to pay a deductible I can’t really afford rn, so I’d like to finally ask for those reparations :’D
