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@error-dxrkness

Sun, 05 Dec 2021 18:05:43

my aunt is going to pass away today because we’re pulling the plug and I’m taking it so hard. she was only 8 years older than me so she was more like my older sister. she was my best friend growing up and I can’t believe this happened. she had her baby son on the 15th and she’s been having complications ever since. she quit breathing and her heart stopped and she’s been in a coma these last few days. it took a turn for the worst last night and I knew this was coming but I wasn’t prepared for this emotional pain. she was so self less and kind and why do all the good people have to go first. her son will have to grow up without her and she won’t get to see me follow my dreams or get married. it’s such a sad day and I hate feeling so fucking helpless. sorry for the rant but I just want you guys to know why I’ve been absent and will continue to be for a little while.

#and i turn 20 on thursday and she wont be here for that #this fucking sucks

@fuckyeszoella

Tue, 28 Jul 2015 12:52:00

August 19, 2020

I’m seriously sitting in my car listening to sad music. These past few weeks have been a roller coaster for my emotional set. For one my childhood best friend passed away in a car accident recently. Her passing broke my heart, I still can’t fully wrap my head around it. It still doesn’t seem real to me at all. Then to follow up with that my mom tried to lie to me and tell me that she passed away from COVID. My mom is extremely manipulative and the fact that she EVEN TRIED to lie on my friends death pissed me off! I took everything in me not to hit my mom. And then to put the icing on the cake my boyfriend… my fucking boyfriend is a dickhead. I don’t know if being with him or falling for him was the best thing for me. I slowly feel myself pulling away from him. Plus I don’t think he’s over his ex. I knew we rushed this. We should’ve just stayed friends. Having a boyfriend is complicating my life. Also I’m moving soon, I don’t think he’ll be willing to come with me so I think I’ll break it off. Hopefully on a good note because I do love him, very much but I just need alone time. I need to focus on myself and when I’m with him he takes all my energy. I give him my everything and I feel like that should be mainly focused on me and what I’m trying to do in life! But at the same time I want to be with him, he brings me so much happiness and joy. I love him so much. I don’t know what to do…