like, ridiculously realistic mad vivid nightmares. like, walking in on your man in the act of cheating on you with another woman he actually knows irl nightmares. they do say your dreams are your biggest fears. but damn, now i can’t fall back asleep. the mind is the worst enemy. it truly is. even unconsciously.
[…] body memory carries with it a fundamental ambiguity: the body’s memory of places belongs to us as personal subjects and simultaneously can remain at odds with our personal recollection of the past. […] Traumatic memory is one especially visceral way that the body can become a host for a living history that the traumatized subject is alienated from despite being constituted by that past. But this sense of body memory as being the site of a different past is not limited to trauma. […] the role of body memory can help explain phenomenon such as hauntings. Both trauma and hauntings call upon the idea that the body has a hidden teleology that strives toward the preservation of self, even if that self is now a materialization of self-estrangement, now ill-at-home in its flesh.
