#tw ed behavior

help !! my friend wants to go out for lunch today and i wanted to fast ughhh

you have no idea how badly i wanna smoke a cigarette right now oh my god

i feel so ashamed of myself right now and the only thing that can comfort me is starving

where’s my morning skinny??!!

i am bloated af. thanks, period.

my face is all puffy and massive and i fucking hate it

I NEED TO KEEP ON LOSING WEIGHT!!!

after all this time i’ve started feeling dizzy again. that means i’m doing fine, right?

my scale doesn’t work. like seriously why does everything go downhill? fuck

Today’s calories : 1389

will i ever escape the 4 digits?

why do i make everything so complicated? like why can’t i just eat a fucking meal and move on with my life or eat when i’m hungry and stop when i’m full? why can’t i just be normal??

Today’s calories : 2214

i just want this to be over

i binged. i’m so fucking ashamed and disappointed of myself. i wanna scream, but i can’t ‘cause they’re going to hear me and think i’m like insane. fuck

▪︎Been trying to take consistent body checks over the past week n I just dropped my phone on my fucking eye socket bones and I’m HEATED

▪︎I also cant tell how much I way anymore and I’m so mad. My mom is leaving sometime at noon tmr/today so thank gOD but I’m so scared…

Okay, when is it my turn to be this skinny ?

My mental health is declining so I might as well

Daily log -11/07/21

Breakfast:45 grams of low fat cheese

Lunch: 1 pot (0.5 oz) blueberry yoghurt

Dinner: fasting (16 hours, started at 4PM)

Water track: 5 glasses

Exercise: Walking, around 11,530 steps

Total cal:207

Burned:600

It be like that.

Daily log -10/07/21

Breakfast: 40 grams of low-fat cheese

Lunch:skipped

Dinner: fasting (for 16 hours, started at 4PM)

Water track: 6 glasses

Exercise: walking (around 10,006 steps)

Total calories:127

Burned:535

Daily log -09/07/21

Breakfast: 80 grams of low-fat cheese

Lunch: grilled flounder fillet

Dinner: fasting (for 16 hours, started at 4PM)

Water track: 5 glasses

Exercise: walking (around 10,062 steps)

Total cal:380

Burned:523