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Food diary

Breakfast

Rose and mint tea, almonds

140 calories

Lunch

10 asparagus spears

1 small tilapia filet

½ cup Pineapple avocado coleslaw ( coleslaw mix, sliced pineapple, diced tomato, diced red onion, chopped cilantro, avocado in place of Mayo, lime juice, and salt)

275 calories

Dinner

Tilapia filet w coconut milk and red peppers

Sweet coconut rice ( rice, a bit of honey, and a bit of low fat coconut milk)

475 calories

Snack

Tortilla chips and pineapple avocado coleslaw as salsa but a added a bit of mayo to make it extra creamy

360 calories

Total:1250 calories


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Today was nice, I’ve been pretty good since the 28th of December. Before then I was just eating whatever and i gained little weight, unfortunately :/ I’ve been working out a little bit every day and it is keeping me on track. Even light work outs are helpful so I don’t feel like a failure. With my ED in the past the most difficult thing to deal with is my all or nothing mentality. Like, if I don’t work out one day I may as not well work out for a month OR if I ate one unhealthy thing I may as well eat the rest. So doing small work outs and having at least ONE healthy meal a day reminds me to stay on track and not catastrophize for making small mistakes.

I rode my bike for about 45 minutes through out the day, 5-10 minutes of jumping jacks and I also played just dance for a bit :) I probably burned about 700 calories from working out. Also trying to stand more so I burn more calories.

Idk if i binged today or not like i think i def ate below my maintenance cAlories but im so full bc i waited until 8pm to have a full meal

You know how when you stand up n you dont necessarily get “dizzy” so much as your vision gets a little speckled with tiny tiny black dots n you hear this ringing that drowns out all other noise n you have this strange pressure in your head till it goes away?

Yay!

⚠️TW - Vivid and Visible Bones In Pictures⚠️

Let me know if this is crossing the line because I WILL take it down if anyone feels it necessary

OkNOW I’m at 115lbsfinally

Through rigorous and exhausting exercise and countless sleepless night and 4 years of this bullshit I roughly have the body shape I want

Now I just need to proportionally lose 15-20 more pounds. Thinking rationally I know that wont happen perfectly so maybe another 4 years of this bullshit will finally get me where I want to be :,)

Redoing this cause the rational part of my brain was like….yeah way too many creeps on here to keep that last BC up. Plus I look so gross so…yea

normal > sucked in > normal > pushed out

▪︎Been trying to take consistent body checks over the past week n I just dropped my phone on my fucking eye socket bones and I’m HEATED

▪︎I also cant tell how much I way anymore and I’m so mad. My mom is leaving sometime at noon tmr/today so thank gOD but I’m so scared…

I love how roughly 50% of this community post pictures of women/men/people who clearly weigh more than us and are fully developed,grown ass women/men/ppl yet we starve ourselves expecting to look like/similar to them…. ( ._.)

If that doesn’t apply to you dont start invalidating yourself cause you being in this community is enough to qualify you as “sick”. Recognize that I said “roughly 50%”, not “everyone"

Let’s Cut the Shit:

Most of us are not pro/do not want to encourage people to engage in behaviors of ed’s…

But we ALL know damn well that posting all this is just as encouraging to other people as it is ourselves. Like people posting a huge list of tips n positive outcomes from this ed stuff n then at the bottom adding a half hearted “I dOnT prOmoTE eAtInG dIsorDerS”or“Im nOt pRo thIs iS jUst fOR mE” like cmon bro, just put a TW and be done with it.

▪︎ Aslo, if you’re “not pro” then STOP using the hashtags “pro ana” “pro mia” cause you know damn well what you doing.

▪︎Also EXPLAIN what the TW is dont just say tw

That’s all

my body isn’t even

my left upper arm is 1 inch larger than my right

my right thigh is 1 inch larger than my left

I don’t know why this is, and it’s hard to come to terms with. especially when clothes don’t fit right. also??? why is it not that one side of my body is bigger than the other?? what’s up with this weird criss cross ?? hello??

gotta just remember that it’s a thing that happens sometimes. I just hope I even out at least a little bit in the end (cause im tired of my SLEEVES ONLY FITTING ONE ARM AHHH)

so hey if you’re in the same (or similar) boat as me and struggling, I hope that knowing there’s others out there helps.

…..I’m also sending good vibes your way and they can’t be stopped

>:) <3 :0

me —-> you

Daily log -11/07/21


Breakfast:45 grams of low fat cheese

Lunch: 1 pot (0.5 oz) blueberry yoghurt

Dinner: fasting (16 hours, started at 4PM)

Water track: 5 glasses

Exercise: Walking, around 11,530 steps


Total cal:207

Burned:600

Daily log -10/07/21


Breakfast: 40 grams of low-fat cheese

Lunch:skipped

Dinner: fasting (for 16 hours, started at 4PM)

Water track: 6 glasses

Exercise: walking (around 10,006 steps)


Total calories:127

Burned:535

Daily log -09/07/21


Breakfast: 80 grams of low-fat cheese

Lunch: grilled flounder fillet

Dinner: fasting (for 16 hours, started at 4PM)

Water track: 5 glasses

Exercise: walking (around 10,062 steps)


Total cal:380

Burned:523

Daily log -08/07/21


Breakfast: 8 thin slices of pastrami

Lunch: 1 cup of watermelon

Dinner: 70 blackberries

Snack: 1 beer

Water track: 4 glasses

Exercise: around 10,600 steps


Total cal:506

Burned:558

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