N/A: I’M BACK. With nothing better than a slight anguish to start our day. Don’t kill me, I’m already writing part 2.
Hello, if you are new here, welcome! you may be wondering some things, I usually don’t use the “y / n” to refer to the reader. I use the name Ang or Angel. You know, as a neutral name. You get used to it. If you liked it, leave your heart and share.
Honestly, you weren’t expecting it. Be a new member of the avengers so young. You felt a little displaced. Mainly because you came at a time of tension between the older members. They all looked so serious, the tension in the room was always so overwhelming.
So it should come as no surprise when you gravitated directly to Wanda. She was the only one closest to your age and the only one who seemed to be bothered by the tension as much as you.
You quickly became close. And between intensive avenger training and girls’ night out in your little spare time, you became great friends.
The problem was… Wanda was becoming more than just a good friend to you.
The cold sweat that ran down your hands, your heart pounding and your stomach turning every time you saw her. Every damn time she smiled. It couldn’t just be friendly feelings.
You were falling for her.
And well, you’ve never been hiding your feelings, no matter how scary they were. You was ready to tell her.
But then came Vision, and Wanda seemed closer and closer to him. You didn’t want that to scare you, so you decided to try your luck.
“Hey, Wanda..” you knocked twice on the brunette’s bedroom door. Wanda turned to you and smiled.
“Hey Ang. Come in” You took a deep breath, ordering your legs to move as you entered the room. Your courage is slowly fading.
But then wanda smiled at you, a little crease on her forehead in your weird way today and all the nervousness seemed to fade for a few seconds. You shook your hands as if to ward off chills in your stomach and sat on the edge of the other woman’s bed.
Wanda studied you quietly, seemed to read your thoughts (but you knew she wasn’t really reading them. Wanda respected your privacy).
“It’s just that I have something important to tell you but… I’m really scared right now”
Wanda narrowed her eyes and held your hands in hers.
“Hey, no matter what you can tell me. You know that, right?” She was serious as she spoke and you knew it. Wanda would do anything for you, just as you would do for her.
“Yeah..I know. It’s not that simple, though… I’m afraid it will change something between us”
Wanda snorted and clutched your chin with her free hand.
“Nothing you do will change anything between us. Even if you kill a person, I would help you hide the body if that were the case.” This served to take a laugh out of you, breaking the tension a little. Wanda looked pleased to have made you laugh.
“Okay” You took a deep breath and decided to drop the bomb all at once “We’ve known each other for a while and you’re my best friend but I’ve been developing stronger feelings than just friendship about you” you said all looking at a lint loose in bed. “I’m really… really in love with you” this time you looked up to meet hers. Wanda looked frozen and your heart missed a few beats for it.
Then you would do the only thing that was good. Break the ice.
You laughed blandly and scratched the back of your neck
“It's… sorry to throw it like that at you. I know… that you’ve been seeing Vision lately…”
Wanda seemed to come out of her stupor and winked at you.
“Ang” by her tone of voice you knew.
You just knew she didn’t feel the same
“Well, you know me!” You smiled, not a happy smile but deceiving. “You know I couldn’t miss the chance to tell you and it’s okay, love. We can still be friends, right?” Wanda sighed and hugged you tightly.
You returned the hug to the same intensity, holding back the tears for later.
It was all right, really.
Loves come and go. Some more painful than others.
You would still have Wanda in your life.
Just not the way you wanted.
There’s a part 2, I just haven’t posted it yet. I’ll take a look at my files, I’m pretty sure I had started
you met me with a heart that was cold due to the painful lies i was told. you warmed me up and made it melt. but you took a step too far and set me on fire. now it will never glow again, you fucking liar
So I’m in love with this guy and its horrible because I know we’re not right for each other and yet I can’t make myself stop thinking about him because the problem isn’t that he’s a bad person or that he has mistreated me or been unkind in any way because the truth is he has never hurt me. Not once in my life.
Instead he has treated me with kindness and respect and honesty. He has never held me to my faults and forgives me so effortlessly for my mistakes. I can tell him absolutely anything because he has never judged me before and I have absolute faith that he would never tell anyone else what I have said. He always listens to what I have to say with complete attention and says the right things at the right time and offers me the support that I need when I need it.
But it doesn’t matter how much I share with him, because he finds it so, so difficult to be vulnerable and the more I try to get him to open up the more his walls go up. And now our lives are moving in different directions and I’m scared that in a couple of months I’ll never see him again and I’ll have run out of time and lost something that is so special to me.
But I can’t tell him any of this because he’s not mine. He’s someone else’s. So I just have to stay quiet and hope that our friendship (because that’s all it can ever be at the moment), which is relatively new and fragile, doesn’t run away from me. I’m scared to tell him how much he means to me because I don’t want him to think I’m interfering with his relationship, or for him to feel uncomfortable because he doesn’t feel the same way about me. But I just think he’s so special and he deserves to know because I know he doesn’t see it himself.
I don’t know anyone else like him. That’s what makes it so hard. I look around at a room full of perfectly nice men and all I can see is how they aren’t him.
