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a-very-angry-queer:

thebibliosphere:

nofuckinwaycupid:

the-panic-button-collector:

dimespin:

“Why do you beat yourself up so much over little mistakes?”

This is such a good illustration of emotional abuse

This is why you shouldn’t make fun of people for over-apologizing. 

I will always remember after I moved in with husband for the first time, and I dropped a mug and it shattered. I went into a terrified panic, waiting for a rebuke that never came. And in some ways that was worse because it felt like I was being ignored and that was something else I dreaded too, because my god, you spend your life dancing on a knife edge between dreading attention and craving it, cutting your feet to ribbons to keep up with a tune you’re not allowed to learn because it’s always changing.

It took a very long time for me to trust that his affection wasn’t a weapon in disguise, that no, it really didn’t matter. Because a broken mug is just a broken mug and not a sign of my inherent lack of worth.

This is too damn relatable.