You know what breaks me?In SoD Gellert approaches Albus and he makes clear that he WANTS his presens

You know what breaks me?

In SoD Gellert approaches Albus and he makes clear that he WANTS his presense. But until the very end of the movie he does not show his vulnerability. He flirts, he shows irritation when things don’t go his way, he retaliates with bigoted comments, but until the ‘who will ove you now Dumbledore?’ he does not open up about his feelings; not even when Albus says that he was in love with him, which Gellert simply acknowledges as a fact. On the other hand Albus is very open about his emotions. He does not hide his vulnerability. But he witholds physical intimacy.

When we reach the peak of the duel, with the sound of their heartbeats and their hands over each other’s hear, Gellert’s eyes fall on the hands because he is given the touch that he’s been deprived of. On the contrary, Albus is fixed on Gellert’s face because he finally sees the other man’s honest yearning unfiltered and without any pose and pretenses. 

After their hands drop, Gellert steps forward trying to close the space between them, still focused on touch and proximity. Albus steps back, but he still can’t take his eyes off Gellert’s vulnerable expression. This is not what REALLY happens as the actors perform, in the sense that the shots we see of the characters’ faces are not the result of a linear take, but in the final product Albus blinks ONCE in the span of one minute because he can’t stop taking in Gellert’s face. I’m telling you that’s NOT normal. I can’t stay unblinking for that long. These two have compromised me emotionally.