When you’ve spent your whole life pretending to be someone you not really are to the point tha

When you’ve spent your whole life pretending to be someone you not really are to the point that you’re no longer sure what your original personality was supposed to be but at the same time you’re afraid that everyone will reject you if you even remotely show them what you’re really like so you keep up the facade anyway because you’re pretty sure you no longer have a choice by this point.