I bought a red coat. It may be a very simple and silly thing to say - to me it means that I am tryin

I bought a red coat.

It may be a very simple and silly thing to say - to me it means that I am trying. Trying to be hopefully. Trying to move forward. Trying new things. This to me was an adventure.

I wonder if he is sad too. I wish I could tiptoe up, wish his head would tilt down, raise my face up, perfectly aligned - his lips to my forehead. Only time I ever felt safe.

I know deep, deep down that none of this matters to him. He is happy in pursuing the things and people that make his life enjoyable. That was always him, always enjoying life.

Me? I was always so somber & I remain so. However, in my little red coat I can feel extraordinary. Even for a few hours. My Cinderella jacket.