My head, eyes and heart are in pain… I have a killer headache, like my head would explode

My head, eyes and heart are in pain… I have a killer headache, like my head would explode, bacause I have cried two days now. It’s so hard to understand… I frozed, when I heard the news at night and my heart started to race like crazy. “No no no…” was all I was able to say… When I woke up yesterday, I remembered what happened and tears came back right away. Today I lit a candle in his memory and again cried a little more. Even I never met or talked with him, it just hurts like hell. I couldn’t even watch the new Yashahime episode yet. I hope he and his loved ones are okay and grief eases. ♥️