I don’t know when that day is going to come when I’d no longer be loving you. I

I don’t know when that day is going to come when I’d no longer be loving you. I think at times that I have already forgotten you and then there are little things that happen to remind me that I’m wrong, I still have you in my heart, in fact falling more for you after losing you, I just can’t understand why despite so much pain, my heart still beats for you, I can feel, how terribly it longs for you. I want the world to end or I want myself to end because I cannot live without you. I do overcome these thoughts and try to survive but you know what, I can only manage to do that for a few days, after that I again break. I don’t have you and maybe I never can and so I just want to see no face, I wish I turned blind because what do I do with these eyes when I can’t even get to see you?