“I would visit a drive-thru and I’d spend five times the amount of money than the average person and I thought that was totally normal,” Ryan told Teen Vogue. “[Once] I was with my friend and they said, ‘Ryan, how do you spend that much money?’ …and then it just became this secretive thing where I would basically eat in private.”
Despite being in therapy for a large portion of his life, Ryan said body image and eating habits never came up with his doctor. “I don’t know if it’s because I was a guy or if it’s just because my therapist wasn’t too familiar with eating disorders in general, but I never really knew that anything was that wrong with me.”