This is one of the hardest things I will post; RIP Grandma Vicki. Here we go,I’m sorry I h

This is one of the hardest things I will post; RIP Grandma Vicki. Here we go,I’m sorry I held the biggest grudge against you and stopped talking to you for about three years. I’m sorry for being a brat and holding anger instead of love. I’m sorry for not answering your calls on my birthday. I never got to say sorry or say I forgave you, and I feel so lost right now. I remember on Christmas when you would buy us things even though you had nothing, you would always call me and ask me about whom I was dating. I remember when I went through a very rough time you were there for me, calling me everyday. You always told me how beautiful I was. And to never forget how much I loved you. You would always song to me and say “great green globs of greasy grimy gofer meat, mutalated monkey meat, little birdies dirty feet and I forgot my spoon!” I remember going over all the time and eating McDonald’s for breakfast, lunch and diner, I remember you told me not to go in the ball pit bc little kids peed in it. Like Tina, I watched the titanic all the time and the first time with you. You used to give me candy and we would visit great grandma Blanche. You took me to the park and I got to play with your kitties. Watching Jaws was our thing and it always will be. You told me to call you “Vicki” instead of grandma, guess you didn’t want to feel old. As time went on I barely got to see you, in fact I avoided the idea of seeing you because it seemed easier to hold a grudge then to talk to you about how I felt. I wish I could take it back now and I’m so sorry I can’t. You lacked in a lot of things but what you had in your heart was more valuable than any rich mans home, you had love. And my God, you loved so much. I’m so sorry and I love you so much. I miss you already, I can’t believe you didn’t realize how loved you were. I’m sorry, so so sorry. I’m sorry I stopped talking to you, I’m so sorry I’m so stupid and elf that stupid grudge. I kept telling myself to call you and apologize, and now it’s too late. I love you. I miss you. We miss you, Vicki. #rip #grandma