I’m doing this for your own damn goodYou’ll make up for what I blewWhat&rsqu

I’m doing this for your own damn good
You’ll make up for what I blew
What’s the problem, why are you crying

It’s been a rough few weeks to months, always seems to be around the holiday clusterfuck season. Decided to at least vent a little with some characters who admittedly have had the hardest time from both an RP standpoint, and just an existential standpoint.

Personally, Perfect by Alanis Morissette hits really deep; for me and for the characters. Aoki grew to despise being a girl because of their mother’s strict standards on tradition; bow your head, stay subservient, be a perfect little doll. They weren’t allowed to do the things they loved, and ran away from home frequently just to come back because they had nowhere to go. Only recently have they tried to embrace themselves again and rise above their former abuse; but it still gets to them, especially when people start expecting things from them based on certain qualities.

Yen [or Keese] lived a life of abuse, and eventually had high expectations placed on him to the point he mentally broke down from it despite his brother trying to protect him and support him. Even in a rebirth cycle, he was placed under expectations to be more than he was, simply because of who he used to be- pushing him to self sabotage and pursuit of power in a repeat of history; even if he has his brother and Ai trying to be a wall of support. Unfortunately, he was left such a mess he still can’t process complex emotions, and is wary of anything positive, and can’t even recognize that he himself has been consistently abused simply because he thinks it’s all so normal.

I’m good at making happy characters. .D.