bdsmafterthoughts: Don’t worry about wetting the furniture. The idea of wearing a diaper doe

bdsmafterthoughts:

Don’t worry about wetting the furniture.

The idea of wearing a diaper doesn’t do anything for me. Being made to wear one, and the way that could be used against me, however? That’s a whole different story.

With a diaper, I could be made to piss myself anywhere at any time. Sitting on the couch, walking around in public, at work, at a party. Anywhere a partner wants me to submit to their control and piss myself. Knowing that they could force me to debase myself at any time with just a word would be a heady experience, even if they never gave the order.

Of course, they could give me that instruction without a diaper, but the part of me that sits outside any subspace I might enter would be pinged by the fact that they wouldn’t want to cause a mess anywhere difficult to clean or that might involve nonconsenting people in our play. The diaper would remove those barriers, making it possible for them to force me to piss myself anytime, any place.

The feeling of being controlled would be intense. I wouldn’t want to do it, but I would have no excuse to refuse. My not wanting to isn’t enough of a reason, of course. I would have to piss myself, then continue whatever I was doing while wearing a wet diaper. I wouldn’t be able to forget for a moment about what I’d done, and that I’d done it because I was told to. I would feel disgusting and degraded, but at the same time, I would be turned on by the level of power that person had over me.

Doing this would be utterly humiliating. I have a hard time feeling humiliated or ashamed these days, at least as relates to piss. Being forced to piss myself while wearing a diaper and wearing that wet diaper, though…That would make me feel ashamed and embarrassed while I was doing it. Then afterwards, it could be used against me to make me feel humiliated and ashamed. Have me masturbate thinking about it. Tell people what I did. Allude to it in everyday conversations. Mention it to me at unexpected moments.

I almost don’t want to post this, to be honest. That’s how humiliating I think I would find this whole thing, especially having my actions mentioned and used against me afterwards.