I have been hesitant to write this because writing it makes it a reality. But thru out this journey

I have been hesitant to write this because writing it makes it a reality. But thru out this journey I have vowed with myself to be completely honest and allow the chips to fall where they may. After I got done with that dreaded psych evaluation, after a primary care physical, a busy hard and long 2 wks of work with no weekend rest for my whole family being sick and a son getting 6 teeth at once and a double ear infection with a cold and allergies to top it off….my cardiologist while clearing me for surgery has labeled me high risk. At first I wanted to just break down and cry like seriously wtf else could go sideways this week?!? I was drained….entirely too drained to fight it I just wanted to cry but you know what…I allowed myself a pity moment and got it right back together. I don’t want to have surgery at high risk. I want to get off that table and be well enough to make it home to my family and be able to function. It sucks not going into the new yr with my new life already underway but it’s not my time right now. But the changes I have made have made a great impact on my life already. I get my sleep apnea machine soon; my blood pressure is going down somewhat; ive lost 8lbs since Nov 5th and now I just continue what I am doing, exercise and wait for my turn #plussizeandshrinking #mommyfitness #fitmommy #plussizemommy #plussizemommyfitness #plussizefitness #healthyliving #healthylifestyle #beachbody #21dayfix #21dx #fitness #blackgirlsworkouttoo #wls #preop #vsg #lapband #prewls #gastricbypass #bypass #bariatricsurgery