roominthecastle: How much time? Maybe a year. They call it a… they call it a “long illn

roominthecastle:

How much time? Maybe a year. They call it a… they call it a “long illness.” It doesn’t seem very long to me. I know you told me, and I believed you. But time passed, and I thought it wouldn’t happen to me. I wasted it. I wasted it all for nothing.For nothing?Do you remember that morning when I first called you, how unconcerned I was? I don’t believe much that comes out of the Kremlin, but when they told me they were putting me in charge of the cleanup and they said it wasn’t serious, I believed them. You know why? Because they put you in charge.Yeah. I’m an inconsequential man, Valery. That’s all I’ve ever been. I hoped that one day I would matter, but I didn’t. I just stood next to people who did. There are other scientists like me. Any one of them could have done what I did. But you… Everything we asked for, everything we needed – men, material, lunar rovers. Who else could have done these things? They heard me, but they listened to you. Of all the ministers and all the deputies… entire congregation of obedient fools… they mistakenly sent the one good man. For god’s sake, Boris, you were the one who mattered most.