Yessss to all of this! I feel like every episode I jump between zeshou totally knows and zeshou is oblivious. But whether zeshou always knew about ligong’s feelings or even returned those feelings, the outcome is the same because his views on love have been greatly shaped by his mother abandoning her family. He’s so cynical about love and I think as a result he’s terrified over the idea of falling in love with ligong. He has a drinking party to celebrate his friend’s breakup, he describes his work as a divorce lawyer as freeing people from marriage and he disagrees with ligong on whether Aaron and Hank’s characters can save their marriage. To him, admitting that they’re in love would mean losing ligong because he thinks love ends badly. When you watch his reaction to ligong kissing him, the thing that jumps out the most is that he’s SCARED. Ligong just did something that will make it impossible to keep pretending and zeshou goes so hard on the brozoning because he’s desperately trying not to acknowledge it. But later in their office, ligong is miserable and avoiding him and zeshou DOES acknowledge it by outright asking why he likes him. And I just really hope they communicate and make some progress in this week’s episode because I can’t handle ligong’s heartbroken face for much longer.