#angst and hurtcomfort
A Place in this World Ch. 4
“I’m worried about him,” Sirius said quietly as they sat in the den. “I wish he would talk to us. I even offered him my wand to write with but he just shook his head.”
Lily wrung her hands in her lap. “He knows you thought he was the spy,” she shared. “I went to see him after Christmas, to ask why he hadn’t come. He told me then.”
Sirius cursed under his breath.
“He tried to tell me it was only natural,” she went on. “But I could see how deeply it hurt him.”
James ran a hand through his hair. “All of the work we did in school getting Remus to believe he wasn’t a monster and we didn’t look at him any differently for being a werewolf…and we turned around and made him think exactly that.”
“He said…” Lily’s throat constricted. “He told me he didn’t expect to have a place in the world after the war, no matter who won. I think that’s why he was pushing us away. He’d already seen it starting and thought it was inevitable.”
James and Sirius looked absolutely wrecked with guilt. Lily knew they hadn’t meant to cause so much damage. It was the war. War did terrible things to people.
She just hoped it wasn’t too late to fix it.
