#at my wits end

She is gaining too much weight, doing too little activity, smoking too much, sneaking and buying snacks because I cant keep watch 24-7, I think her blood sodium is rising because she’s confused and I caught her three times in the past 8 or so days just sitting up but had fallen asleep. 

I cannot take this much longer.  Every time I try to bring up how she has to make at least some effort to meet me halfway, I get a fight.  I will stop buying any snacks.  I already took her bank card and I will limit her cash even more if I have to.  I will get power of attorney, conservator, something because she just cant seem to stop.  She has very little impulse control and I’m afraid she’ll end up back in the hospital.

Tomorrow is the start of a new week and I am officially going harder. Some of the blame may fall on me.  When she irks me, asks the same question too many times, or wants to challenge everything I say, I walk away and leave her be.  It’s time to stop that and stand up every time.  I dont care anymore if she doesnt like it, I’m not going to buy treats to appease her, I have to get serious since she wont or cant.  It’s all up to me.