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A Failed Attempt to Return to Normalcy

Backstory:

Perfection. Ever since she was created that word, that concept, had been at the forefront of her mind and was what she strove for. However, time after time Frozensai was plagued with failure in every endeavor. When she fell to Lydete, it didn’t take long for The Creator [formerly known as @blazingsai, it’s still me but it’s easier to just have one entity named “blazingsai”] to retrieve and heal her. However that loss broke something within her and she did not awaken until a month ago (a month before chapter 14 of Red Witch). 

When she finally woke up, although The Creator greeted her happily and didn’t see her as a failure, that sense of perfection that she’d always had left her. Without it, she didn’t know what to do or how to carry herself. She couldn’t see herself as @blazingsai’s number one agent/avatar (a position that she highly valued) and without that… she realized that she didn’t have a sense of who she was anymore. 

So even though knowing that it would leave @blazingsai more vulnerable if Lydete were to attack, Frozensai asked for and was granted some time to travel Skyrim in order to find herself…

After returning two months later, Frozensai came to find her predecessor’s (Blazingsai) flaws to be more palatable and… appealing. She began to shadow her counterpart everywhere, forgetting about her actual duties in the process as Blazingsai introduced her to the world without “perfection tinted lenses.”

As she came to get closer to Blazingsai, Frozensai began to develop her own hobbies, something that she previously had no need of when she believed herself to be perfection incarnate. Alongside amassing a secret stuffed animal collection, Lydete and Blazingsai’s (both of whom have since stopped doing this) habit of wearing various eccentric outfits rubbed off on Frozensai and she began to do so herself when she was away from both Blazingsai and The Creator.

It was while strolling around Solitude while wearing one of these outfits that Frozensai was embraced from behind by some stranger. Turning herself around, she saw it to be Blazingsai. Although relieved that it was someone she knew and not some stranger trying to get hansy, Frozensai was furious that Blazingsai had startled her so and was about to give her a piece of her mind… When Blazingsai suddenly kissed her!

Unable to comprehend what was happening, Frozensai pushed Blazingsai off of her and to the ground. With a smirk, Blazingsai asked “how was it,” hoping that his prank of hers would make Frozensai go back to her usual self (even if momentarily) at the expense of being chewed out. Instead, Frozensai didn’t say a word as a wave of emotions that she had never felt before began to flood her senses, mainly embarrassment. 

Although she wanted an answer as to why Blazingsai had kissed her, it was all Frozensai couldn’t bear to look at her for a second longer and so she ran off, leaving both of them with more questions than answers…