Summary:When Namjoon told you he loved you four years ago, he meant it with every fibre of his being, and that meant that he would do everything in his power to ensure that you would never get hurt, ever, but promises like that are often impossible to keep, and now. You were hurt, and he could do nothing as he watched you become a shell of the woman you once were, as you struggled to remember everything that ever happened to you, including him. You forgot him. Namjoon still will try, but how much is too much, and when the hurt is irreversible, can he still make you fall in love with him again? Or will he let you go? Or will you?
Warnings:Lovers to Strangers AU! (but not in the way you think, possibly in a way that’s sadder). Mentions of traumatic brain injuries, and surgery, nothing graphic, but it’s a very hard read, and was an even harder story to write. Mentions of apashia, mental health struggles (anxiety and negative thoughts), and physical health issues. Reader is learning how to become whole again after her world changes within minutes.
Authors Note 2: This song really hits very close to home with me. Bear with me if it’s not medically accurate. I’m well aware that the recovery time for traumatic brain injuries is not a few weeks. From first hand, I know it’s more like months and years. But for the sake of fiction and telling this story, there will be time jumps, and just know, everyone’s recovery is different, and everyone’s journey is different. I’m not trying to glamourise memory loss or horrific accidents, but this is something that has happened to someone I love. I can’t say they got their happy ending, but that’s the beauty of telling a story, isn’t it? Finding closure through fiction?
Authors Note 3:@go1denjeon, Angel thank you for reading the first bit of the fic for me, and I inserted the line from one of our conversations in the fic, something about “rewriting history” It spoke volumes to me
Banner Credits:@alpacaseokeok, thank you my love, for this incredible banner!! Your talent amazes me, and you’re so incredibly to take this on ✨
Release Date: 30th April 2022 (sorry folks I got sick and I need some more time )
→ summary: surrounded by signs- from every half-hearted “I love you" to the impregnating scent on his shirts- it becomes obvious. nevertheless, you can’t let him go just yet.
→ warnings: infidelity, strong language, mentions of miscarriage;
→ author’s note: hi everyone. this is my first ever piece written, so please let me know what you think about it. also the one-shot itself has about 100 words written so it will take a while till i post it. writing is hard also inspired a bit by “the knowing” by the weeknd kisses
preview | oneshot | mlist
“It tickles me.” A soft laugh escaped your lips while your husband continued to cover your face with vivid kisses. Your hands did not hesitate to move his head a bit to examine his allure while still playing with his messy hair.
“I let it grow a little. Should I shave it already?” he suggested blissfully. A hot shiver ran down your spine when your doting eyes met again that morning.
“You’re so hot like this. I can get used to it.” you never failed to compliment his new looks.
You always adored his spontaneity.
“Practice makes it perfect, doesn’t it?” he asked confidently, giving you a deeper kiss this time. You could swear he could hear the bass playing in your soul. He still had that effect on you.
“The exhibition starts in one hour”
“Stay!” he groaned sleepily, hugging you tighter into his muscular embrace as you were preparing to get up. With your head carefully placed on his bare chest, you were feeling inundated by his ambrosial, gentle scent- such a common and domestic feeling for you.
“You know I have to go.” you sighed. With your apologetic eyes searching for his, making you already fight the need to leave your haven.
The curtains were moving quietly in the shivery breeze of April, sign that the window was left open overnight. Noticing that you were unquestionably disturbed by the cool temperature that overlaid the room, Taehyung covered you protectively with the wrinkled sheet that left your naked upper body victim of the cold.
He loved the scene in front of him: the adorable smile that appeared on your small lips when your skin made contact with the warmish material, your soft hair resting on his shoulder, your steady breath, and how your body was trying to get closer and closer to him. You were so delicate from his perspective, so angelic and precious. He had this profound want to keep protecting you. And no one could change that.
“They won’t even notice you’re late.” Taehyung insisted. “Plus, it’s Friday and I don’t work today.” Sometimes his determination amazed you.
“I organized it all. I can’t skip it like that.” you said under your breath. Taehyung seemed to understand when he smoothly loosened his secure hold, careful not to hurt you when he withdrew his arms.
“Five minutes. You can leave after. I promise”
You witnessed the change of scenery in your room, golden sunlight decorating your bedding with a minimalist pattern. The city had returned to life after a rainy spring night. The neon-colored digital screens adorning the towering buildings were analyzed by dozens of tired drivers who stopped at the traffic lights. At this hour, dark-suited men with square bags were racing across diagonal crosswalks for the first train to the city center. The pink cherry blossom gingerly painted the wet sidewalks. Brunette teenage girls with healthy long legs thrusting out from checkered skirts were rapidly walking to high school. The noise of the urban agglomeration fighting in a cold war with the peace that has swallowed you both.
“Baby, I will be late.”
And you left. Not knowing that maybe that tender morning was the beginning of your sour end. - in a way or another.
taglist: let me know if you wanna get tagged. i don’t have a mlist just yet
vae, i’m definitely excited for your first fic & this already sounds amazing!! i can’t wait to read the entire fic ❤️ can you please tag me when you release it? thanks a lot ❤️
yoonseok is such a common side-pairing so their tag is full of fics featuring other ships, but they are honestly such a good ship. their personalities contrast a lot yet they get along so well irl and make for wonderful fics.
