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Character:Dick Grayson x Reader x Bruce Wayne

Summary:A certain bat believes that Y/N is in way over her head, that she’s too naive to act in her best interest. So, whether she wants it or not, the vigilante family is going to help and protect her before she gets herself killed.

Word Count: 4,100+

Previously on…

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The next three days were one of the darkest periods of Dick Grayson’s life. 

He was thrown back into the past to the moments after his parents were murdered. This felt the same but somehow worse. Because he was convinced he had the power to stop it, to keep Y/N safe.

Why did everyone he love have to die?

Was he cursed?

Was he responsible for their deaths?

He hadn’t even been able to tell Y/N how he really felt. He’d been holding back all this time, terrified that his truth would just push her away and make her decide to close off from him.

Now Dick wished he could go back in time and confess everything to her. If she had pushed him away, he would found his way back to her somehow. He sees that now – now that it’s too late.

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I have never wanted to throw up so badly.

Edit:

Reading this chapter just… I don’t think I’ve ever had such physical reactions. Like, hand over my mouth, trying not to scream through all of it.

I threw my phone when Bruce kissed her. Literally. Then I took a few deep breaths and had to know how it ended. I started rocking back and forth when they went to bed. Like. O. M. G. Of course they did. But also NO.

And then a knock.

A. Fucking. Knock.

I wanted to hurl. I really did. I thought I was going to. That was… oh my god, Dick.

Thanks@invisibleanonymousmonsters for taking a TORCH to my heart. We were GETTING SOMEWHERE. GOD. DAMNIT.

Im trying to actually put into words why I’m so upset and I can’t. I get the whole finding comfort in a similarly broken person, BUT HOLY FUCK BRUCE.

I swear the man has two feelings.

Bad.

Horny.

Like….. you can do other things, Bruce! You can hug a person! You kiss a cheek! That’s tender as shit. Leave a box of cookies at their door! Write a letter! Or you know… just like… say thank you for saving my life? THERE ARE EXPRESSIONS OF GRATITUDE THAT DONT INVOLVE COPULATION BRUCE.

He doesn’t know them. He doesn’t know them. He doesn’t know how to be a human. He just knows he has to keep Gotham safe and make sure Damian doesn’t burn down a build a bear. That’s it. He has the emotional development of an angler fish and I’m MAD ABOUT IT.

Why are you mad? BECAUSE HE KNOWS THIS. I KNOW THAT HE DOES. I KNOW THAT HE KNOWS THAT HE DOESNT HAVE ANY FOLLOW THROUGH IN AN INTIMATE SENSE. SO JUST STOP. STOP STOP STOP.

I get it, he’s not okay. Bruce has baggage. Hurt people do things when they’re in a silly goofy mood but OH MY GOD BRUCE STOP FUCKING HER.

I can’t. I can’t with them.

AHHHHHHHHHHH.

Dick is just happy she’s alive and he lets her go because it’s what she needs and then he wants see her and and and and and

I’m not okay.

I am not okay.

I would like to go on record saying I AM NOT OKAY

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