#dawn chorus

Jon Hopkins / Dawn Chorus (Thom Yorke)

There is a minute of the day - the embodiment of the most irrepressible inconsistency. The minute of the dawn. The morning, from which the life begins, buries the life of dreams - maybe the only life we want to live, the only one in which we live and don’t just exist. And then a dream is taken for reality - it seams that we are falling asleep as we are waking up. “You live when you feel” - that is the principle according to which the character of the movie “Life on Mars” defined the life of his dreams as real - and died to return to it.

When I had to come up with the title of the book that I loved since my childhood with the character comprising all the illusory light of childhood dreams, I called it “Everyday”. At that moment it seemed to me that there is nothing more beautiful and unattainable than real life, a simple everyday life without emptiness, fear and pain, when waking up every morning you feel like the peaceful light of life is not dying along with the gone dreams, but is awaking in you.  And you get out of your bed again, wash your face, cook breakfast, that you have done thousands of times - as if this is happening for the first time, every time - for the first time. Everyday. Morning. Dawn. Whiteness of sheets. Whisper of water. Clinker of dishes. Palpitation of leaves. Song of birds. Dawn Chorus is a song about the open eyes that see the morning light, dead, not evoking a single feeling, about stillness of hands, about silence of life (tenderness), transforming into silence of death. Funeral of life. Farewell. The song is a memory of the long-gone morning light, long time ago - maybe several years, several decades … thousands of years ago? How many more times can you open your eyes? How many times would you want to get up? How many times?..

Do not forget to tell me when you get tired of waking up.

* The post is dedicated to the song Dawn Chorus (listen) from Tom Yorke’s album “Anima”, released on June 27, 2019.