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tidied up my desk setup to better display beloved Trinkets

i like these characters a normal amount

workin on an analysis possst of my observations of boys’ perso story 3s

plot twist: luke taller than marius just this once

my girlfriend’s early bday gift to me is TEENY TINY MARIUS hes so small and EATABLE and now luke plush has company

fic wip stuffs

been working on the “giann finds out marius is dating 4 whole people and gives the entire nxx polycule shovel talks” fic to keep my brain steady. b4 the shenanigans can happen, i had to yoink giann back to stellis

remember the artem’s milk can i could not frigging open with a knife and swore to buy a can opener for?

i did not buy a can opener for it. i let my dad have a go at it with a Bigger knife.

and then i melted the edges with a lighter and sanded it off. artem and mc have been Recycled

closing the ask box for a while. things are overwhelming over here due to ph current events that you can learn about in my previously rb’d posts and my brain is more outta whack than ever because of it, so for a bit, im minimizing things to think about. i will post once its open once more. hope u understand!

sneak peek of ch5 of the shovel talk fic. this is how the chapter starts:

in my defense, i had hoped i eased ppl into the tone shift w ch4

two (2) skrunklies r keeping me company while i write

been a while since i last felt i looked cool (ish) (eh, fake it til i make it)

me: maaaaaan, i really want luke’s lost gold card in this rerun, SSR Lover’s Quarrel In Front Of Nature Park Staff—i mean, Iridescent Heartbeat. i hope he doesnt make me go to hard pity, im still saving for anniv :((

luke: //comes home on 2nd 10 pull JUST LIKE IN THE SOTT BANNER

me: ooOOoOOOOoOOoOOOOOHHHH HE LOVES ME SO MUCHHHHH!!!

happy pride :D

so it’s been 2 years since my senior year of college was abruptly cut off by the pandemic and i didnt get to do a lot of college milestones in person. among them, graduating w that silly little ceremony. but our batch is getting onsite grad in august! and it only rlly sunk in now cuz last night while chatting to my gf i joked to her about how im probably gonna be playing tot during the ceremony and then i realized

oh god i can bring luke plush

oh GOD I CAN SEW A MATCHING TOGA AND GRADUATION CAP FOR LUKE PLUSH

literally i was p meh about the onsite grad aside from seeing my friends again. but now that this thought has entered my brain, im So Excited. my time to feel accomplished has passed, im never gonna feel like that ever again.

but the joy of luke plush with me? oh thats eternal

buckle up baby boy, youre an honorary graduate of [redacted school] batch 2020

[TRAIT] obsessive desire to quantify life experiences that are inherently unquantifiable to make sense of the world and your experience of it + [TRAIT] relied a bit too much on school grades for self validation + [TRAIT] you r no longer in school and r now well under way doing adult life bullshit + [TRUTH] life right now is confusing and that fucks a lot of people up + [HORRID BRAIN TENDENCY] but if you can quantify it, if you can grade it, things might make more sense + [TRUTH] life doesnt come with grading rubrics like a class in school though + [TRUTH] but you do spend a good chunk of your time online where theres tons of points of comparison to check yourself against + [TRUTH] however those points of comparison will always be skewed towards the successes, because it isnt as often that people talk about their fuckups or the parts of their lives that are wholly mundane and nothing much is done + [TRAIT] oh wait you have absolutely INSANE envy, inferiority, and insecurity issues by the way + [TRAIT] also self-loathing and impossibly high standards so nothing is ever enough and nothing youve done counts =

everyday i have a mild breakdown

tfw uve finished writing a long-ish fic