#gaius’ eyebrow after this
Do you think I sit around doing nothing? I haven’t had the chance to sit around and do nothing since the day I joined a fandom. I’m too busy running around trying to drown myself in content. “Read this fic!” “Watch that show!” And when I’m not drowning myself in old content, I’m trying to make new content. And when I’m not doing that, I’m trying to regain emotional stability. Do you know how many times I’ve cried over this stuff? I’ve lost count. Do I get any breaks? No. I have faced character deaths, unresolved endings, and plot lines that don’t make sense. I have been queerbaited, heartbroken, left on cliffhangers. And all the while, I have to remind myself that it’s not real, because if I don’t, I might just explode. Sometimes I feel like I’m being pulled in so many directions I don’t know which way to turn!
