#gender rage

Today I had the strong urge to make a shirt design (first shirt).

When I sent out WIPs to my friends one pointed out that the shirt sounded frustrated towards the system. And indeed, I am totally angered, enraged and furious.

I am not proud to be non-binary nor am I happy to “be different” from cisgender people. In fact every time people put me in boxes I feel trapped and embarrassed. Every time I get mistaken for a gay man wearing women’s clothing I feel sad and angry. But I can’t fit in. I tried to - believe me. First on  female and then on male social expectations. It doesn’t work out for me.

Actually the rage I feel is pretty much circling around me. There is so much sadness and anger for myself for being unable to fit in. So much hatred for my own needs. I own no compassion for myself. I am constantly punishing myself for being different, feeling I’d have to fit in.

One part of my therapy is to change the way I treat myself. Stopping the pointless hatred against myself and therefore society, comes with that. Which is why I made the second version of my shirt. Which I will actually print. I don’t want to fight for myself with anger, comparison and hatred anymore. I want to be joyful, spread love, stories and knowledge. And gain freedom with this.

If you’d like to get one of the designs: Message me and I’ll give you a printable file for personal use :)