#guess how my fucking night is going

growing up on the internet is talking people out of self harm and suicide from states and sometimes countries away. having grown up on the internet is remembering that and panicking when somebody is AFK when they usually aren’t, and also running some dumb joking convo with another mutual as you desperately try to get in touch with your buddy trying to mask your fear. Having anxiety and living in this awful loop is just your stomach and head hurting during all of this, and the cherry on top of the cake is that I can’t turn my lights off because my brain hasn’t forgotten the image of the henocied face (do not google) for two weeks and as a result i have NOT slept soundly.