#happynew2020

*Trigger warning, mentions of depression and suicide*  

Well everybody, it’s 2020. I can’t believe it’s the start of a new decade. I almost didn’t write this, but I’ve been doing it for the past few years, so I would like to continue the trend.

2019 was not my favorite year. It was awful, full of strife, depression and pain. Yet it showed me I’m stronger than I think. I faltered, I made mistakes; the biggest being an attempt at taking my own life.

I’m not better by a long shot, but I’m here, which means I have a chance to be. I’ve started therapy, changed my antidepressants to one that suits me more and I’m going to take the time I need to heal.

I want you all to take care of yourselves. Get help if you need it. Don’t be ashamed. It’s okay not to be okay. Give yourself permission to cry, to grieve, feel anger (don’t hurt anyone though). Take time to get to know yourself, love yourself. Make this a year to remember, don’t give up on your dreams. Spread love, give kindness. stay safe, be well. Allons-y lovelies!