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diana’s struggle with accepting aunt josephine and gertrude’s relationship as romantic wasn’t one out of bigotry, it’s because she herself is a scared baby lesbian with compulsory heterosexuality holding her down. she’s afraid because growing up in a conservative family, her future was decided for her, and she never once questioned it. you can clearly see that in a scene with cecile chaminade—piano is her passion, but when cecile suggests it as an actual plausible career, diana is startled and at loss of words because it was never even a possibility for her. same with romance—she was always expected to marry a man and be a good wife to him. it was common knowledge, an accepted truth, never something to argue with, which is why the realization that it doesn’t have to be like that is so terrifying to diana. it makes her question everything she had known and felt up to that point, makes her think that maybe she does want something else in life, maybe she actually has other options, and it keeps eating at her like this tiny little voice in her head—but it’s new, and scary, and would undoubtedly change everything, so she denies it, dismisses it as “unnatural” and tries to tone the nagging little voice down, but it just won’t work
