#i feel like im drowning

i understand my brain is At This Point because i am just frenzied but i am paranoid and scared and i have fucked up tremendously and caused problems and caught in the polarisation of hostile and child parts warring and i have the disease that makes me unable to have controlled emotional responses so i’m just

going through a pretty significant awful period of my life right now. i’m glad my depression isn’t bad or i’d be giving up right about now.

so like, cheers to not doing that.