#idk how i feel about this yet

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The palace floors are cold.

His eyes are colder.

You look into them as he reaches his hand towards you, and his indifference stares right back. You lower them quickly, biting into your lip until the sting in your chest gets replaced with something more tangible.

His embrace was warm against your skin but left you feeling alone. Your hands tremble, slowly lifting to wrap around him, head burying in his chest trying so hard.

Trying so hard…to what….

Trying so hard to make him see you? To feel less alone?

What are you trying so hard to do?

Your eyes fill with tears.

Why are you crying? What were you expecting? What’s crying going to do?

That’s right, let him kiss you. Let his arms hold you close and pretend like there’s love surrounding the two of you. Hold his face between your hands and lean into him.

It’s not going to get any better than this. He may never truly see you, but you can pretend he does and he can pretend not to notice.