#ill be ok in the morning dw

alcohol cw:

maybe its because im just a little buzzed rn but im just feel so damn tired of everything and feel like ranting. i think this is the first year ive decided to open up just a little to people i feel safe with about talking to about body dysphoria after feeling it for the majority of my life and i still dont know if its just because im “me” having “me” identity problems or if its from all the shit i internalized from harmful media growing up

i’d rant more about the lack responsibility and the ignorance of older generations for shaping the world into what it is now but my main thought is that i wish i could just be alive but non corporeal 

i’ve been seriously considering top surgery in the future and the possibility makes me feel genuinely hopeful but in the meantime im just deeply and secretly frustrated