#ill figure it out
oh also! re: grad school advice
Do not feel guilty for not being able to spend time on things you used to. If you are a creative person, this 100% will hit you harder. I don’t remember the last time I wrote something just for fun. That was the worst, anxiety-inducing guilt of all. I still panic thinking about it. I got an ask sometime last year about how I managed the balance between creativity and grad school, and I’m pretty sure - I remember not having anything to say about that one either. Whatever answer I gave, I lied. I didn’t manage it at all. And you might not either. That’s okay. It will be there for you when you get back. You can find it again. You will find it again, and I’ll have advice for you on that when I manage it myself.
Spent the morning housecleaning, now the only question is do I spend the afternoon finishing sewing my last spring/summer skirt (and cutting out my yellow dress) or writing? On the one hand–the skirt is all done except for finishing the waistband and it would be so satisfying to have it complete, and I really would love to get started on the yellow dress. On the other hand–I only have 10-15k left on this story draft and I would dearly love to get it finished this month, especially since I just found out yesterday my cover designer is available to do the cover for it this summer, which is amazingly good news as she is a teacher and a published author and I was pretty sure she wouldn’t be available for my covers anymore and nobody else has ever been able to grasp the idea of I want it to look like the cover of a Golden Age detective story, but with magic quite so well as she has.
Ah well. Suppose I’ll get dishes washed and laundry going and see how I feel when I’m finished with those.
(Drat, I just remembered I have no idea what I’m making for supper. Creative endeavors of all sorts may end up being put off for food prep. I hate housecleaning day, but I hate living in disorder and filth worse, so what can you do?)
So far I have neither sewn nor written, but I have started downloading all my old fics from ff.net that I want to save, and am debating which (if any) of them are worth putting up on AO3. Mercy, most of these are childish, for all that they were written in my 20s! I’m not ashamed of them, but I’m just not sure any of them are worth sharing anew, aside from maybe one or two Narnia fics that I do still love.
Oh, and I have washed my dishes and my laundry is in the dryer, and I figured out what we’re having for supper (tacos). So I am accomplishing some things, just not the creative things I want to accomplish. Which is about how most of my days go, come to think of it …
